02/04/2025
How can your heart burst and break at the same time ? My maternity leave has come to an end. The paradox of being a working mother is hard to describe, especially if you love your career, and, love being a mother.
As I think of all of the new ideas I have for my practice, I can feel the excitement building. Then, without fail, the Mac truck of GUILT slams into me at 100 mph when I think about the time these endeavors will take- time away from my kids.
Guilt is an icky feeling, probably one of the worst. Moms are drowning in it. Guilt for working; guilt for not working. External messages bombarding us from all angles, causing us to question our choices as mothers. From the time we spend with our kids, to what we’re doing during that time, to screen time use, organic or not organic, how we care for or medicate our kids when they’re sick, to vaccinate or not vaccinate. The list is infinite. There is a constant game of mental ping pong going on in our heads at any moment. While our choices may be different, we all have the same intention- of raising healthy, well-adapted and loved children.
I’m trying my best to quiet and challenge that judgy, unhelpful voice that pops up when I focus on something other than my children. I can be a loving, effective mom AND have a career that means so much to me. I can be a therapist AND struggle with my own “stuff.”
So many of the feelings I have shared I hear mirrored by other mothers personally and professionally.
We are all in the same boat, rowing upstream, at times without a paddle, but, we are not alone. As different as we all are, there is no greater ally to a mom than another mom.
Because of my own lived experience with infertility and as a mom, (which has been the hardest, and most amazing role I’ve played), I have begun the process of niching my own personal psychotherapy work around helping mothers. I’m so excited to share more, as I complete upcoming trainings.