06/19/2020
Past, Present and Future seem to be the space I am living in. Marked by uncertainty with two major catastrophes there is too-muchness to process. That is the mark of trauma, too-muchness, and yet the mind and heart demand to make sense out of what is happening to life as I know it. Trauma deconstructs the ground we walk on and disrupts life as we know this. Watch a modern-day lynching to hear the words of 'Momma help" be called out, or monuments being toppled, or the faces of families outside of nursing homes who can't get in to comfort loved ones, We are shaken by these images of cities on fire, What does the world mean to you, to me as the ground shifts beneath my feet of change. I long for the old days, of family vacations, family in my home, patients in my office but this is an opportunity in the midst of the ashes. Opportunities to get working again on the meaning of life, love, family, work, play. Make an effort, one day at a time and if you are having trouble, let me know, or a psychoanalyst know. We are working hard as mental health providers to use our skills to deal with the vulnerability change. The mystery of our faith, if you have faith is something bigger than yourself, is now more than ever. So be still, meditate on the luminous mysteries of the rosary while you work out your fears, your concerns, your losses, and through the cracks, as Leonard Cohen sings so beautifully, "the ight is coming in ."