06/01/2025
💜Story time! 💜
I’m on week 3 of a new habit. This is a big deal for me because I can totally cycle in and out of habits.
The reason why it’s sticking is because it’s actually been helpful. I’ve been setting an intention for the week every Sunday for the past 3 sundays. The intentions have actually stuck with me throughout the week and been extremely grounding. During week days I tend to feel sort of overwhelmed in moments, lonely even, and really just weighed down. I attempt like crazy to not forget anything and ‘drop any balls’, and that makes my brain scan areas of my life over and over again until I’m exhausted and want to sleep. I worry about parenting, I worry about Ivy at daycare, I worry that I’m not present enough for friends or family, I worry about ‘bad’ things happening, and the list could go on and on.
In sum, I take life really seriously. For being sort of a nutty goofball who brings levity to things naturally, my own inner world feels very serious and scared most of the time.
HENCE ( been dying to say hence) the intention practice! Something to come back to when during the week I can be an untethered ship at sea (dramatic, I know. I AM dramatic, so…. )
This morning I was dying to find the perfect intention since it’s been working so well. During yoga, words like fun and levity came to mind but it wasn’t quite sticking. A little while later I was milling around with Ivy (2.5 year old daughter) and asked her what her intention for the week was.
She shouted without hesitation, “SATURDAY”.
That was it! That IS it.
This week, I’m going to be Saturday. Lighter, freer, less serious. Balls get dropped, I pick them up and keep going. Or I leave them there because they don’t fuc*ing matter. Why do I give an F if my bathtub is clean?? I’m the only dirtball who rolls around in there anyway.
Enough of a perceived audience.
Now, leave me to my trashy shows and fun novels in peace because I am SATURDAY, GD IT. 💅🏼