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Syra's Support, Millcreek, UT (2025)

03/29/2024

Just got my next treatment today, and I’m feeling the side effects a lot. 😰 Any prayers and positive/funny/uplifting posts are very much appreciated…
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you and I love you guys.

02/16/2024

This is Eric. Syra is having a stronger reaction to her treatment today than usual. She’s in pain and really miserable. Any prayers would be very very appreciated.

11/04/2022

Since I have gotten married, I have realized that under Medicaid, I was pretty spoiled. It covered pretty much everything as far as procedures and medication’s, etc, the things insurance does cover. And Eric has really good insurance, but it does not cover everything. We were hoping to use our monetary wedding gifts to help with these expenses, but did not receive very much, though we appreciate what was given with all our hearts. 🙏🏻 we are not destitute yet, but we are having to resort to debt, which I know makes Eric nervous. We are also hoping to get into a home at some point, if we can make comparable to what we are paying now. We have a long ways to go in my battle for my life… or more accurately, in extending it as long as possible, as I am technically terminal (I’m pretty stubborn though! lol). Our out-of-pocket is pretty high. We still need to also support our seven children. But I figured that I would set up a fund to help us out. It may be tacky, me setting this up, but I wanted to do SOMETHING, since I’m limited in my physical abilities. Eric works so hard.. I also learned personally that these are opportunities for others to be blessed. ❤️ I’m still debating whether to do a GoFundMe or not, but I can accept and donations through Venmo, PayPal (both are and the picture is me wrapped in a flag) or Zelle.

I truly am grateful to those of you who have been generous in the past.. You’ve helped this rocky road feel a lot smoother. 😘😘

11/04/2022

UPDATE;
Things went relatively smoothly, though they did have to stop the procedure twice, once for to my anxiety at not being able to breathe.. my nose chose right then to start feeling stuffy. That nose hole is the only place I can breathe through. He told me that I could breathe through my mouth, but then kept telling me to bring up my jaw, which would close my mouth. I was on some strong “chill pills” and it was still triggering… Then the back of my head started to hurt because it was pinching my skin between bone and hard surface.
Though it was rough, I also need to share something really special. Eric gave me a blessing, and was told that the procedure would be successful, and that I’d have angels there to help me…. On the way to my procedure today, I got the distinct impression that two of those angels were my grandmothers, Jessie Mangus, and Arlene Thayn… I could FEEL their personalities, so I knew it was true. The photo below was one my sister, Maranda made, of three generations of women in my family, the first two are my grandmothers- Gr. Mangus on the left, Gr. Thayn is the second one.
Then later when I was there, I couldn’t feel them as strong, so I asked why and the Spirit told me it was because they were in with the staff and Dr’s, guiding them. 🥹🥰 We truly have angel on the other side working for us… ❤️

I am so grateful to know what I know, to have the testimony, gifts and relationships that I’ve been given… you all make a really hard thing feel like a blessing and I can’t tell you how much I am grateful for you.. all of you. Eric was right outside the doors the whole time, every time, even when I tell him he can tend to other duties… that kind of effort and service should NEVER be taken for granted, or expected. ❤️
God has us. Do our best and we can hope and even expect miracles! Just don’t ever presume you know what miracles he has for you.
On to the next battle! 👊🏻💥💪🏼💥
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Heading in… prayers and angels please that they’ll get the tumors and nothing bad will happen. ❤️ (Gamma knife procedure to zap my two brain tumors)

09/29/2022

Surgery this morning to have port placement put back in after 3 years. The upside is, this time it will keep me from needing to get stabbed every time they need to test my blood. For anyone that wants to know, this explains it;

09/27/2022

(From Melody Jones)
Syra May Mangus Pabst asked me to post this. She needs a few days to process things before answering questions. With this being new to knowing the cancer has returned to her she feels it is too much emotionally and mentally to answer a lot of questions right now. If you can give them a few days. They would appreciate it.

If you see her heart ❤or thumbs upping 👍 on a comment you make, just know she is appreciating your comment and wants you to know she has seen it and recognized your love and support. She needs it! Her whole family does! Her kids and husband are really struggling. I see and feel the pain they are experiencing. She and they needs your prayers!

It is difficult fasting during general conference, so I will be holding a special day for Syra and Eric's family for the next two Sundays. If you would like to join, let me know. With combined faith we can and will bolster them.

We talked last night about the second coming of Jesus and how hers may be sooner than the world's. We talked about squeezing as much joy out of life together before that second coming. Life on earth is uncertain and we all have hopes and dreams of what we will accomplish, lives we touch, people we will support, joys we will witness, tears we will wipe away, encouraging words to be said. She wants to do it as long as she can. Sometimes our sojourn in life is to last until old age or at a younger one. We don't know when our end is coming or how, but some of us are fortunate to know a little in advance.

She said to post this real. She didn't want to give people false hope. Yet she doesn't want her grave dug far too early either.

Shared by Syra:

What we now know;

*It is Metastatic Breast Cancer (returned)
*It is stage 4, and grade 3 (the most aggressive kind)
*It's in my bones; my 9th rib, multiple vertebrae and in my chest lymph nodes.
*It will eventually take me but he says I have years, not months or weeks.
*It hurts more in the bones than in the breast; and I'm under pain management.
*We are starting on treatment right away, to help give me as much time as possible.
What we need;
Eric and I are trying to wrap our heads around everything, and to please be patient with us, in our responses to your questions and expressions of love. We hear you and love/need and thank you for your prayers and love.
❤️🙏🏻❤️

Treatment is going to be happening right away. She is getting her port in the next few days and chemo starts Monday.

She said there is so much for her to live for here on this side of the veil. She has a desire to live as long as she can and anticipates to be here for years as the cancer continues to return, mutate, then die off with treatment. Then return, mutate, then die off with treatment.

I am so grateful she has found Eric Christopher Pabst and that they can have this time together. I know this may be personal, but I am going to say it anyway. When they went into the er to find out the source of her pain, they called us after they found out. They asked for us to come to give her a blessing, if course we would!

As we were still on the phone she asked Eric, "Are you going to leave?" I know how painful it was for her to lose a boyfriend after treatment, be consistently friend zoned afterward when they found out about her condition, to be rejected over and over and over again. She wanted to quit looking for someone and leaving the dating scene many times, but God told her to keep going and trying. She wanted to obey the Lord and did painfully continue in faith. Her fear of abandonment was something that has been reinforced and very real. His response was immediate with confidence and enthusiasm, I could feel the smile on his face. "No way! I would never want to miss out on all of this awesomeness with you!" Instantly her fears were soothed and she (and Josh and I, and now you!) knew they are in it together all.... the.... way into eternity! They plan on extending their family in the eternities.

I am so grateful to be able to be near her to help support her in this difficult time. They can feel you near through your prayers, words of love and kindness, and fasting right now. They love and appreciate all of you!

09/22/2022

Bronchoscopy biopsy is done. (They went down my throat to biopsy my chest lymph nodes through my bronchial wall.)
It made my throat sore, and it’s painful to talk.. but it should be gone in a few days hopefully.

Echo came out normal, yay strong heart!
PET scan results pending
Biopsy results obviously pending.

Follow up oncology appointment on Monday! He’ll probably be sharing results then… 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 😰

09/20/2022

I’m at my PET scan, becoming radioactive, and drinking contrast! They couldn’t get an IV in my arm, so they had to poke me again in my hand.. Whee! Lol. Please pray for good results 🙏🏻

09/16/2022

And so it begins… again.
I have an echocardiogram, a PET scan and a consultation for a biopsy already scheduled in the next 7 days.
The big C train has been fired up and is expecting a Rocky trip!
Tuesday is my PET scan… it’ll show where it all is, with how much it’s lit up.. prayers that it’s as little as possible!
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Whee. 😥

09/06/2022

I was hoping I would never have to say the words again… but here it is, 3 years since I said it last.

The cancer is back.

My rib has been hurting for a while, and the last week and a half it has gotten worse and the pain has spread.. so Eric took me to the emergency room, because we could get the necessary tests to get the answers needed right away.

The news came back that it is in my rib, several vertebrae and in my sternum.
I’m more scared this time for some reason.. but they’ve put me on the expedited “path” probably because my cancer last time was so aggressive.

I’m so discouraged.. it changes so many plans.. and I’ve already gotten heartbreaking responses. I don’t feel the reassurance I got last time yet.. and the idea of doing it all over again….. and the expenses, when we were just settling in to a financial plan.. 😭💔😭

I’m sharing the news here for two reasons;
-I don’t want to repeat the details more than necessary, and;
-I need prayers. Today is fast Sunday, if you feel inclined.. but prayers is what kept me emotionally and spiritually strong while my body was being broken down, the last time. I need them more than air. 🙏🏻

We will see where this road takes me. 💔

Edit: oh, and please pray for my sweet husband. I know what I’m facing… but this is a lot to take on, and he’s already gotten some unkind responses.. 🙏🏻

12/03/2019

Tomorrow I start chemo #2...
I don’t have as much apprehension as last time, but I’m dreading it a bit more. At least I know a bit better what to expect!

The good news is that I can feel the mass has shrunk... so I know it’s working at least! Please keep the prayers coming... I swear, I really believe with all my heart that they are what is making me feel strong!

A beautiful friend of mine asked what I needed prayed for specifically.. she said she finds they are more powerful when it’s prayed with intent. I thought that was inspired.. so I guess what I need at this time is that the treatment will be effective but the burden of side effects will be eased... and of course peace of mind. ❤️💖❤️💖
I’m trying to focus on just this stage, because I know chemo isn’t the end of it... 😓

At least I’ll be on the upside of treatment #2 by the time Christmas comes! (Treatment #3 is the day after)
I love you all!!! Thank you for continuing to love and support me! 💖💖💖

Photo is of a blue rose I bought for someone... it fits the “season” 🥰

11/17/2019

So... this chemo thing is definitely one of a kind...

My skin and mouth has dried out, I bleed easily, my stomach ulcers have created a black hole, I have constant digestion pain, my extremities are tingling and feeling a little numb, overall sharp body pain (flaring fibro?) tastebuds are changed, I feel woozie, headachy and weak.. and YET I think I may still have the favored reactions to chemo, and can count myself lucky...

But this is unreal honestly... I feel like I’m walking in someone else’s body. I still can’t wrap my head around that it’s mine that’s fighting......

For the first time I feel like my body is weak.. like it’s made of tissue paper and could fall apart with a little water. It’s the weirdest, unnerving feeling.

But I think the reason I feel so unattached is because my spirit doesn’t match my body at all right now. My spirit has been boosted and strengthened by prayers and love by so many friends and family that I almost feel I’m in the wrong body right now..

But I know I’m not. I am in the right place at the right time, doing what I am supposed to do. This is just one experience that I know I will never truly be able to properly vocalize... I pray with all my heart that my fight will inspire others to fight their battles. In battle, good will always win.. as long as we truly understand what the battle really is. 💖💖💖

Night ramblings of a chemo girl... 🤷‍♀️😉
Love you all so much. 😘😘💖😘😘

11/13/2019

So, just a quick update, since I know many of you are wanting to know how it went but don’t want to bother me too much. 💖 I was there for six hours, the first two medications injected through my port were hormone blockers. They didn’t have any side effect at all in the moment.

The second two were the chemo medications. They said that I would feel the effects of them in a few days probably. They gave me stuff for nausea, and I’m having a little indigestion, and about passed out once I got home from exhaustion.. So I guess for a few days I would be fine outside of those things.

Today actually went so much better than I expected, because I had my mom with me with her regular love and support, and Jeremy surprised me with postponing his layover, and drove down to Richmond just long enough to be with me during chemo, and then drive back to the airport!!! 🥰🥰
Jacqui came over twice during my treatment to see me and bring me a package and give me a hug! I love you, and appreciate you so much!!

Thank you to those who have been helping with meals! They have been really, really helpful and delicious! I don’t normally eat this well because I’m not much of a cook myself! Lol.

I know there will be days when I won’t be able to get out of bed and may need to have help running to the store or something (like right now-nothing big just three things). I was wondering if you are willing and able to help with that kind of stuff, I could make a small list of people to call on. I really only want to ask those who really can, want to, and are in a position to help with it. I don’t want to inconvenience anyone.
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Also, A few people have asked about Christmas for my kids, and to be honest I am a little worried about what I can get them, and I missed the deadline for Christmas mother as I usually do every year. I’m asking my kids what kind of things they would like for Christmas, I was thinking of just getting them a few things that I know they will like. Liya is 12 and Joey is almost 16, and they both have expressed that they will be fine with no gifts, but that makes me want to make sure they get something. lol I have had a few expenses that went towards chemo from my fund, but I still have some left. I would like to save that for any other emergency or unforeseen expense, but I can also use it for Christmas if no one has a problem with it. Just wanted to put that out there for those who are asking. 💖💖💖💖

Which reminds me, I am going to design a logo that includes a phrase I really like “In this family, no one fights alone”, with “Team Syra” on the back. I went with this because it is how my family thinks, and I know that my family extends so much bigger than just my immediate family, so I wanted to open it up for all of my family. If you want, just respond to this thread, with whatever information you are responding to, and I will find a simple way of organizing it. I will be spending lots of time in my bed, so I can! 🙄😂😜

It is through you that I am truly seeing miracles every single day, and I feel strong!!
I cannot express to you enough how much your love and support and efforts mean to me! I truly hope for the opportunity in the future to be able to be the same kind of friend and loved one to you all as well.
💕💖💕💖TEAM SYRA💖💕💖💕

11/11/2019

GOOD NEWS!!!!
So far they don't see any cancer anywhere else, only a few small spots that appear to be cysts on my kidney and liver... I think I'm going to pass out from relief!!!😭🥰

11/07/2019

2nd day of testing ended..

I went in first to do the bone scan injection, then I was supposed to leave for 3 hours to allow it to travel through my system into my bones. I think because of a little low blood sugar and just the physiological strain lately, I had a somewhat violent reaction to just getting the IV put in.. (I was fine mentally) I started throwing up over and over and then realized I was passing out... thankfully they were very fast acting, and with medication was able to calm my body back down so they could continue with the injection.

Then, they decided to see if they couldn’t squeeze in my CT early, since I had to wait 3 hours anyway.. so I had more fluids (dye,contrast etc) drank and injected, and then more blood drawn, to test kidney function. (In which they couldn’t hardly get any blood to come out for some reason.. tested it with saline, IV was fine.... totally confusing and frustrating).

So after the CT and the bone scan, I was sufficiently worn, and drained, but that part is done thankfully...

Now we wait. 😰
Wait and PRAY that the tests show that it has not spread to any other part of my body........
Thank God for my cancer warriors/Team Syra 😘😘😘😘
I don’t know what I would do without you....
💖❤️💖❤️💖

11/05/2019

Day one of testing is over. 😰

I went in to have an echocardiogram this morning, then had an MRI in the afternoon, then had a consent appointment and blood testing after that. Tomorrow, I go back to do a bone scan injection, then I have to leave and come back for the bone scan. After that I will get my CAT scan.. In these two days, there will be a lot of fluids drawn from me, and injected into me... yay! 🙄 Lol.... but I am glad they are getting done, and I am anxious to get the results. The results will let me know whether or not the cancer has spread to any other parts of my body...
(Keep prayers coming... I’m very scared about this)

Some people have asked what they can do for me. One idea that came to my mind, was something that will help me through the almost 5 months of chemo.. I LOVE to get mail (the good kind lol-I can do without the junk mail)

I am anxious to try and keep my spirits up during this time, and fun mail is something that I really look forward to and get excited about..

I am preparing myself for chemo, and have already ran across expenses. So any donations or help with meals are always appreciated. 💖

Thank you all for your love and support. I would seriously not be OK right now if it weren’t for all of you, and your prayers. I will continue to post, or my admin‘s will if I can’t, on any updates or progress.

💖💕💖💕I LOVE YOU!!💕 💖💕 💖