10/20/2025
I used to hold the belief that my cooking wasnβt good enough. My cooking had declined because my trauma became louder. It was harder to focus on recipes or make up my own. I used to make all my food from scratch down to my own juice, face butter and food. However, I allowed an ex to determine my worth, my value, my abilities through a skewed lens. I took that on and have held it tightly. I am not a good enough cook. Iβll just mess up. How many times Iβve wrestled with these thoughts in my mindβ¦ a person who is no longer in my life to dictate and preach words, shards of glass and for me to willing to accept as my truth.
Sometimes repatterning, parenting those parts of ourselves and offering a newer perspective, a newer healthier, more empowering being, can take a bit.
I have been feeling off, sad, angry the past several days. 11:11 as I write thisβ¦
And I realized how much of my time I was listening to old thoughts, beliefs and engaging as if it was here right now. An ah-ha moment ofβ¦ Luna, heβs no longer apart of your life in this way. You shedded the relationship and are stepping and becoming - you - who youβve always been. You are taking this back. You are empowering yourself, to be you!
So, Luna you can, right now let go of this old version you held as who you are and make some delicious food. Allowing yourself to let go of the chains of your thoughts holding you back and expand to who youβve been searching for - you!
Iβm about to tackle a lot of recipes Iβve never made before and Iβm nervous, excited and honestly unsure. Iβd rather try and fail, than not try at all. Itβs important to me to eat healthy, wholesome, nourishing to my soul, meals.
If you too are holding a belief of someone elseβs or a belief that was created by an event of what it meant to you, know that right now, you can create a - new, the new version of who youβd like to be. Who is that right now?!?
I love you. You are so awesome. I am so proud of you. Thank you for being here. - Luna