10/20/2025
I used to hold the belief that my cooking wasn’t good enough. My cooking had declined because my trauma became louder. It was harder to focus on recipes or make up my own. I used to make all my food from scratch down to my own juice, face butter and food. However, I allowed an ex to determine my worth, my value, my abilities through a skewed lens. I took that on and have held it tightly. I am not a good enough cook. I’ll just mess up. How many times I’ve wrestled with these thoughts in my mind… a person who is no longer in my life to dictate and preach words, shards of glass and for me to willing to accept as my truth.
Sometimes repatterning, parenting those parts of ourselves and offering a newer perspective, a newer healthier, more empowering being, can take a bit.
I have been feeling off, sad, angry the past several days. 11:11 as I write this…
And I realized how much of my time I was listening to old thoughts, beliefs and engaging as if it was here right now. An ah-ha moment of… Luna, he’s no longer apart of your life in this way. You shedded the relationship and are stepping and becoming - you - who you’ve always been. You are taking this back. You are empowering yourself, to be you!
So, Luna you can, right now let go of this old version you held as who you are and make some delicious food. Allowing yourself to let go of the chains of your thoughts holding you back and expand to who you’ve been searching for - you!
I’m about to tackle a lot of recipes I’ve never made before and I’m nervous, excited and honestly unsure. I’d rather try and fail, than not try at all. It’s important to me to eat healthy, wholesome, nourishing to my soul, meals.
If you too are holding a belief of someone else’s or a belief that was created by an event of what it meant to you, know that right now, you can create a - new, the new version of who you’d like to be. Who is that right now?!?
I love you. You are so awesome. I am so proud of you. Thank you for being here. - Luna
