07/11/2025
Humble, Honest, and Raw TruthâŚ
For as long as I can remember, my life has existed in a loop: overgive â burnout â crash â rest just enough to repeat. Iâve poured my energy into othersâfriends, family, clientsânot out of obligation, but because I genuinely care. And yet⌠underneath that care has always lived a pattern. The wounded healer. The self-sacrificer. The one who says âyesâ because someone needs something, even if it costs me everything.
Iâve never been one to pretend I have it all together. Iâve been honest about the deep inner work Iâve done and continue to do: healing worthiness wounds, untangling from the victim-rescuer cycle, and facing the shadow of martyrdom that so many helpers carry. Each time I thought I was done with that pattern, Iâd fall into it againâmaybe with more awareness, maybe with softer edgesâbut still repeating it.
The truth? I have overgiven so deeply, so many times, that my body and spirit have been forced to scream to get my attention. Iâve healed myself through autistic burnout. Iâve managed to overcome the weight of thyroid autoimmune disease. And now, Iâm crawling out of caregiver compassion fatigue, and adrenal depletionânot because I didnât know better, but because old survival patterns die hard. Because I didnât believe I could be enough if I wasnât doing enough.
And I know Iâm not alone.
This is the quiet epidemic among healers, therapists, coaches, and guides. We hold space for others so often, we forget what our own medicine tastes like. We convince ourselves weâre here to serveâand yes, many of us areâbut when our identity gets wrapped in being the helper, our own soul starts to fade.
Recently, I attended a day retreat with one simple intention: to feel my own magic. The same medicine my clients experience every day. And what hit me was⌠I couldnât feel it. Not fully. Because Iâve spent so long giving it away that I forgot how to receive it for myself. I was running on spiritual fumes.
What I once called passion, I now realize was performance. The excitement of guiding others was deeply tied to my sense of worth. If I wasnât transforming lives, was I still valuable? If I wasnât holding space for someone elseâs breakthrough, who was I?
But hereâs the real breakthrough: just because youâre good at something doesnât mean it should become your whole identity.
I am a healerâbut Iâm also a mother. A partner. A friend. A human being. And beyond that, I am a divine expression of Source. My worth exists just because I am. Nothing to prove. Nothing to earn.
A dear friend recently offered me three questions for discernmentâoriginally intended for speaking, but theyâve echoed deeply in my heart around giving and serving:
Does this need to be said?
Does this need to be said right now?
Does this need to be said by me?
When I sat with whether I should share this post, the answer to all three was a resounding yes.
So, because of all this, Iâm making radical changes to my business model. As of today, I will no longer offer one-off sessions or casual bookings. I am now offering only three client spots at a timeâeach committed to a 3-month deep healing container. This structure allows me to serve at the highest level while honoring my own nervous system, energy, and joy. All current packages will still be honored, of course, but moving forward, this is the sacred boundary Iâm anchoring.
This change isnât about limitationâitâs about expansion.
By shifting the way I work, Iâm finally able to walk the talk of sustainability, embodiment, and self-respect. My clients wonât just get pieces of me between burnout cyclesâtheyâll receive the fullness of my attention, my creativity, my magic⌠and it will come from a well that is no longer running dry.
To my fellow healers, coaches, therapists, and soul-led space holders: if youâre resonating with this, I see you. I love you. And I beg youâplease reflect on the way youâre holding your practice. Not from guilt. Not from fear. But from that deep, wise place inside that knows when itâs time to change. Your medicine is still sacred even if you serve fewer people. You are still divine even when you say no.
Let your healing matter as much as theirs.
Let your light feed you before it feeds the world.
âŚWe are not meant to save everyone. We are meant to be ourselves fully, fiercely, unapologeticallyâand from there, our truest service flows.
Thank you for witnessing me in this shift.
Iâm not walking away. Iâm walking differently.
Andâbecause Iâm also a Manifesting Generator in Human Design, this shift isnât about rigidity either. If you know anything about MGs, weâre here to respond to life with instinct, to pivot when things feel stale, and to create from a place of pure, present-tense passion. I move quickly. I evolve constantly. I need to shake things up in order to stay aligned and in integrity with myself.
So while this new model of only offering three deep healing containers is the structure that feels right right now⌠I trust that when (not if) I have the extra energetic capacity, or when a spark lights me up again, I may temporarily open up a handful of one-on-one sessionsânot out of obligation, but from overflow and joy.
Because thatâs the new standard: I give from my overflow, not from depletion. I serve when it lights me up, not when Iâm losing parts of myself in the process.
So if youâre someone whoâs been waiting for the âright timeâ to book something with meâstay connected. Those intuitive windows will open again, and when they do, youâll feel it. Iâll feel it. And weâll both know itâs time.
Until then, Iâm committed to honoring whatâs realâfor me, and for the medicine I carry.
For those who are ready nowâwho feel the call to dive in, to commit fully to your healing, to walk alongside me in one of these sacred 3-month journeysâone of the three new client openings may be yours.
