09/11/2025
On this day, September 11, while I felt sick and shocked I also had another thought.
I was, at the time, married to a military spy. I had been hearing from the military and from friends at the CiA about a man named Osama Bin Laden. I had been hearing a lot about him. In months prior to this I had gone through airport security check points wondering why they let me go through with open bottles of drinks and didn’t even smell the bottle to see if it smelled like gas. I thought of all the ways terrorists could get through our lax security systems.
I was getting more and more anxious because of the conversations I was hearing. I remember thinking, “There is no guarantee our country will last forever. We are a new county in the big picture of world history and we might end up a little tiny speck in that timeline years down the road.” I grew increasingly frustrated that many didn’t seem to be aware of our vulnerabilities as a nation.
So, on that day, one thought I had was that I wasn’t surprised. And - I was terrified.
Today, I fear for something else. I fear for the United States falling from within. If our country is destroyed, I no longer think it will be because of terrorists or even Russians. I think it will be from it’s own people.
Charlie Kirk is another life in a line of thousands who have been lost in our country to gun violence. Lost to hatred and to those wirh mental health problems.
Cry for him if you if you feel like you need to, but don’t forget to cry for those children who lost their lives while praying in mass on their first day of school this year. Don’t forget to cry for the children lost in the massacre in Uvalde, Texas and for all the other lives lost to those with mental health problems who got their hands on a gun.
Support real funding and real treatment for mental health in our country and please, please for the love of God and our country - let go of your hatred. Hatred has no place in a country that expects God to bless it. Even if you don’t think you could ever be the one to pull a trigger like so many other shooters we have seen, you never know who might read or hear your hatred, what person with a mental illness your words might trigger.
Shortly after September 11, I was so proud of how our president at the time, George W Bush was able to bring the country together, how everyone worked as one. I remember crying when I saw him at the site of the twin towers in New York, crying with pride in our government for bringing us all together.
I hope there can be healing now before it’s too late - before too many other lives are lost. Polarization does no one any good.
I really don’t even know the world I’m seeing anymore. Be kind. Love all. Serve all.
Dr Hill