07/08/2020
๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ฃ๐จ๐ซ ๐๐๐๐-๐ข๐ง๐๐ฎ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ง๐ข๐ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐ค ๐๐จ๐ง๐๐๐ฒ ๐ง๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ฃ ๐๐ง๐ ๐โ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐ญ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฅ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ข๐ญ.
What?
Yup! Hereโs why...
For context, this was brought on by a feeling of instantaneous numbness & tingling in my left arm
I know what youโre thinking- sounds like something heart-related
Exactly! When I was 15 I had heart surgery โค๏ธ๐ช
(*before you panic reading, Iโm dealing with a shoulder nerve issue as of recent, which caused this feeling... anyways read on*)
Before surgery I had 2 TIAโs in 2 weeks- basically they are โminiโ strokes
It caused numbness and eventually temporary paralysis of my left arm (donโt worry, my arm is like 99% better since)
Nonetheless, Monday night that same numbness and tingling I felt when I was 15 hit me at the end of a Coaching Call at 1,000% force
And I was not ready for it. At All.
I know my truth- Iโm 100% ok. That issue cannot impact my life since my surgery.
But logic rarely triumphs over emotion
I was tunnel visioned
It almost felt like I was stuck in a trance
I lost color in my face, I was sweating profusely, lifting, swinging, and pinching my arm just to make sure I could still- ๐
๐๐๐.
Something. Anything. A sign that this wasnโt real, and it would soon pass.
๐๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ?
A moment so powerful it took away all sense of reality, and had you stuck, trying to find a way back to being grounded in truth...
I share this for a few reasons. It reminded me of 3 crucial things we all need:
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐- if I didnโt have Ashley there to calm me down idk what wouldโve happenedโฆ we all need a supportive community to lean on, to push us on our best days, and comfort us on our worst days.
๐๐๐๐๐๐- whether I was 15 or 29, Iโm in great health and this still scared the S**T out of me and made me question my lifestyle and decisions. You have to prioritize your health in 2020 more than ever.
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - I think thereโs a *silent* population that is suffering and needs help, but is too scared, ashamed, or fearful of what would happen after they share their vulnerabilities, pains, and struggles.