12/28/2025
Last night I got hard-core called out by my cards. Ouch.
When you deliberately practice watching your own thoughts for over 5 years, you look back and realize you built the ladder out of your own pit.
Your nervous system regulates. Your ego loses the need to “prove” itself. You realize that everyone is projecting. Everyone is mirroring.
Even you.
Even me.
Last night I felt led to the call out that landed on my plate.
“Service that serves whom?”
“Separated from intuition.”
“Law of detachment isn’t a boundary.”
“Even your shadows have shadows.”
I sat with that for a few midnight hours in the living room floor last night.
My prayers are spoken in gratitudes. Notebooks filled with colorful pen marks reminding me of the rainbow of shades my emotional color wheel has on deck. Heck, sometimes I write my shadows down and glue them eye level on a collage.
I can see it.
With or without a visual.
Even with all of this tedious metacognitive restructuring, there’s still a boatload of spots we can hide harbored inertia. Intentions we dare not show the light of day and habits we shield from even ourselves— these shadows stare back.
I am grateful to sharpen my iron by pattern recognizing my way back to still point.
How do you ground yourself after intense self realizations? Do you have any recommendation to share?
Honored to Witness
Xoxo
