05/26/2026
Why Control Freaks Are Susceptible To Being Improsoned…
And before you come at me because you’re a control freak, I HEAR YOU!!!!!!
My personality type is a controller.
My entire life has been based on controlment of some sorts….
Controllment of my external environment - It took me 14 years to become a US citizen. I’ve preserved immigration adversities for over a decade because I wanted to control my space.
Controllment of my body - so much so that I started obsessing over manipulating my body at the age of 12! Anorexia, bulimia, yo yo dieting for over a decade….
Controlment over people - I’m embarrassed to say this but it’s true. At times when I felt weak and wanted to get what I wanted, I would manipulate my speech to protect myself. I lied, I cheated. I said what people wanted to hear….
Why did I do all that?
Because Control gave me certainty.
Because feeling out of control made me feel like I was falling a part. Death to my ego!
I seeked controlment of all sorts because in reality, I was not TRUSTING!
I didn’t trust my environment, my body, my habits, and other people.
Controllment is a default reaction when you lack awareness and is a byproduct of trauma
So if you’re type A and you thrive on control, I know that it served you in many ways, and now it’s time to embrace finding certainty in what’s outside of your control.
Like going on vacation and not being tied to a schedule…
Like allowing yourself to take a day off…
Like delegating what you’ve been used to doing…
Because the truth is, when you have order and you trust, that’s the ultimate form of freedom.
Where in your life have you been holding onto controlment? 👇
Healing vibes!
❤️The Jacked Mystic