01/26/2023
Yes
EVERY SINGLE TIME!
some people would say I'm allowing my emotions to be controlled by others, some will say I am manic. Say whatever and have doubt on how much I can or can not handle. Just like you it is me who decides how much I want to and how much I will try to do.
God has me and every moment, feeling, blessing and the plan and his will for my life is already written.
What I decide I want to do, have to do and that I do is between me and God.
He is the only one that will judge me before I cross into the gates of heaven.
Yes my life is full of a mix of extreme blessings, extreme heartache, responsibilities and actions. I however believe and repeat daily that whatever God brings me to whether it's extreme blessings, gut wrenching sadness it is his AMAZING Grace that will carry me through.
I have faith in these words and sometimes around a few select people my human body shows my human actions. It may be big smiles, profane words, trembling hands, alligator tears, screaming or even laughing. If you have seen me be human it is because i am and that I feel close enough to you to show my human nature and react to the pain or gratefulness of my blessings.
Do not be mistaken by any of my human responses to experiences as weakness. I am weak but he is Strong. Please don't judge me and tell me what you think I should do or what I should not do, how much I should handle or should not handle. I do what it is I feel he places on my heart and I ask for forgiveness when I know my actions or words were not of God. I am often a Hot mess and sometimes a beautiful Mess,
However I AM GOD'S hot beautiful mess. Wonderfully and Perfectly made and so are you.
Ask for forgiveness, ask for the peace that surpasses all understanding. Until he opens the door praise him in the hallway. He is the true author of your life. He blesses us and never gives us more than what we can handle. Be still and know that it is God himself that has you in the palm of his hands.
Love and Abundant Blessings to each of you!