07/19/2020
Hey FBF, how are you doing today?I hope all is well. I feel so much Love for the People God has Blessed me with to Keep Them in Prayer. I've been trying to get some Peace in my heart for Ever and When I thought all was Lost God Sent Angels to me When I was down to Minutes to go until I was Dead,God sent People to me and I will always be here for the 300People He's given me to Love and to Love me. That is the most Important joy I've ever had, Being able to Say that to you and yours is a Blessing to me and to the SOULS GOD the FATHER has given me.I Believe in HIS SON JESUS,I BELIEVE IN THE HOLY SPIRIT, I'm being Held up by GOD the FATHER, I never seen Him but I know That it's HIM I answer to, When my Mother Died I was lost,My wife was lost meaning I didn't know where she was for almost 3 days,I called all over the place and no one has seen her,I called her mom and she didn't know what to say to me about her or where she was, Finally I called my mom and she said"Baby, do you think she left you"? No mama I don't, Well Baby Pray then "GO FIND YOUR WIFE", Mama knows, Right.So I went all around the Neighborhood and no one's seen her, I made myself Sick with Worry, I call the Police,and I had to wait for some s**t they said to me. On the 3rd day I called my mom and she said she hasn't heard anything yet but she won't give up so don't you give up either,Lord GOD, Please help me find my Heart, then I get a knock on the door and I ran to answer it,There at the door were 2Cops, they asked me to come in and I did,and I showed them to the Living Room,and I Felt like I pi**ed on myself,They told me that they found a young Lady laying in the Street Sunday past and she didn't have ID My eyes Rolled up to show only white and as I was going down they Caught me and sat me down for one went and got me some water (it was the best water I ever had),then they said they took her to Woodhull Hospital,I never heard of it before and I was Affraid to ask if she was alright,They were acting like they was messing with me and I didn't want to go Crazy on those Guys but somebody had better get to the part where she's ok, they just said they'd take me there,I was dressed already so I said let's go, when I got outside alot of my Neighbors were in front of the house like they knew what I didn't about my Lady,all those sad faces made me glad I didn't eat for a few days.As we pulled off I saw my Pastor Running towards the house,"O" FATHER" was all I could say, I passed out, I came to just as we pulled up to the front door and we went inside,God gave me strength to walk cause I was floating, We got to the Security Desk & they turned me over to the Supervisor and this as***le says, "We have 2 Jane Does in here 1is on the 9 the floor and 1 was in the Mouth, but if she's not the 1 upstairs you would have to get someone from your family to see the one down stairs."Yo Man" I said,"You have a Bathroom I could use"? I wouldn't wish those feelings on anyone else,Cause I was greatful it y me because I had The FATHER Holding my hand. That ride up there was too fast, I wasn't ready to leave the Comfort of the rail I was bending in the Elevator, he must have not heard me walking behind him cause as the door was closing he turned and said "you coming", Fear is Crazy, cause when he said that I looked down at the front of my pants and said"I don't think so", He Laughed and said she's down here and I followed him down the longest hall I ever seen, it was a Nurse sitting in front of the door and she didn't let me get set up for what or who was in the room she just opened the door and I looked in at the Biggest Light Brown Eyes I've ever seen,Hi Baby, my Wife said to me as I ran to her arms, Tears falling, nose running everything I ever wanted was in that bed and I wasn't Leaving Her,I looked at the Nurse and I said" Lady, put my name on the meal list, get me a Blanket and pillow cause I ain't leaving"!!, Before she could say anything,the Supervisor said"Yes Sir,"Right away", After kissing the lips off her face I called my mom"MaMa, I found her, She's in Woodhull Hospital" "Thank You JESUS was all my mom could say, "I'm Staying here until She's ready to leave",OK Baby" my mom said, after she spoke to my Wife she hung up... I Never Felt those Exstreem feelings before, i felt like I was going to die all the way up Never being so Happy. After 4 more days the Doctors Cleared her to leave,and as I was getting her Medicine list together a Lady friend of ours came into the room. She said "Victor y'all have to St.Johns Hospital, Mama's is in there. "OK, ANGEL,THANKS. I got her Meds and we took a Cab over to St John's, I sat my lady down in front of the information desk,and asked for my mom and they gave me a pass and said she's in ICU, I said baby I'm going to see what's up with moms and I'll be right back to take you home,ok,"ok baby" she said as I went to the Elevator, ICU is on the 2nd fl, so I got there pretty quick,I asked for my mother's room and was told "the last one on the right, as I walked down the hall I could hear the beeps and air machine working,and I had a smile on my face so big cause I knew what she would say about all the things making so much noise,as I went in I stopped cold chills running down my back, my mom was laying there and her eyes that looks just like mines were covered, tubes, bags hanging around her and she wasn't moving, I went to her and felt her face, it was warm but she wasn't feeling anything, I looked up at the door to see a Nurse standing there,I asked her"Miss, What Happening to my Mother"? "She's Brain Dead";" I asked her"if you cut off those machines what would happen"? "The Machines are pupping air to her Heart& Lungs,& if you cut off the Machine her Heart Stops and She's Dead.
