12/01/2024
Iāve been going through a very difficult life transition over the last few months. This time has been full of heartbreak, rage, defeat, grief, humility, acceptance, and self-reflection. I spent this holiday weekend on my own. So many of my people checked in on me. Wow, do I love my people. I felt so cared for.
What felt profound for me was how I was checking in on myself⦠to have the time and space to become more attuned to my deeper needs and how to care for them, which unknowingly became quieted over time. I got to remember younger and present parts of myself and how completely worthy I am of simple joy, vulnerable honesty, and aliveness in my life.
I danced out my anger and cried my grief. I accumulated hours just sitting in the bath. I sat on my couch in my underwear listening to Bocelliās Christmas album with a honey mask on, crunching on pistachios. I had the best time. I was swimming in appreciation. I fell in love with myself. Iām grateful for a practice that has prepared me for the tidal waves of life and a bold willingness to stay open to the wild emotional winds that have been present. I know this process will continue to shift and feel different in other moments, but it feels so good to be in love like this again. In love with life. May this felt sense of love, aliveness, and appreciation be of benefit to everyone. ā¤ļøš«