03/05/2026
yes, thank you Matt Licata
There is a movement in the path of awakening that does not lead upward at all.
It does not move into light or expansion or transcendence. It moves downward — into the body, into memory, into what has been waiting for us.
Many of us first encounter awakening as a kind of opening. Something softens. The tight center around which experience once revolved begins to loosen, and we sense a wider field of being that is less defended and less afraid.
This opening can bring relief. It can feel like freedom — as if we are no longer confined to the narrow room of the person we believed ourselves to be.
But the opening is only the beginning.
Sooner or later the movement turns, and awakening begins to draw us back into the very places we once hoped to leave behind — into the body, into relationship, into grief, into the unfinished conversations of the heart.
This turning is the descent.
The descent is not a failure of awakening but its deepening. Where the opening reveals the freedom of awareness, the descent reveals the depth of being.
In the descent we begin to meet the parts of ourselves that could not be lived before — grief that had no witness, anger that had no safe expression, tenderness that had nowhere to land.
What returns is not pathology but life itself.
Over time we discover that awakening does not remove us from our humanity. It returns us to it — more slowly, more gently, and with a greater capacity to remain present with what is vulnerable and unfinished.
The path continues not upward but inward, into the density of lived experience, where awareness and embodiment gradually become one movement.