
11/28/2024
For anybody experiencing food anxiety today—
I know that there’s nothing I can say to take that away, and if there was I would🫶🏼
🌻All I can say is that you’re not alone, and it will get better.
Thanksgiving can feel like the Super Bowl 🏈 of isolation for people struggling with their relationship with food: Being in a room filled with the people you love, but experiencing this mental handicap that makes it feel impossible to connect, be in the moment, and enjoy.
I remember feeling like I was in an episode of Charlie Brown, watching everybody, but I couldn’t understand them, and how they floated effortlessly around the room, laughing, and unburdened, as they filled their plates and their stomachs, when my mind was a warzone assessing and fielding threats 🚫⚠️‼️ as I ran calculations: How many calories in this, in that? How could I burn this off? How long would I have to “detox” for to make up for this? Could people see I was anxious? How terrible of a person am I that I can’t just lock it up and be grateful? I’m “healthy”, I have family, God, I’m the worst, I don’t deserve to eat. S**t, I missed the punch line of that joke. Would I think it was funny?Just laugh. Everybody else is.
🌻If this sounds familiar to you, just know: This won’t last forever, and not every Thanksgiving will be like this. It got better for me after I committed to working on understanding where my thoughts, emotions and behaviors around food came from. I am so Thankful for my recovery and the Therapists who got me to a place where I can enjoy Thanksgiving and join in with a present mind and a peaceful heart.
If you’re struggling, please try to be forgiving of yourself today, and when you’re ready to reach out to help, my team and I are here 🤎.