05/23/2024
For those that remember, or don't, today marks a year for one of our worst days. A year ago today we got a call at 430 in the morning to rush to the hospital. We had gotten word that she had went into cardiac arrest and had been down for an hour. Today marked the start of the journey to find out how bad the damage was. The next 2 weeks just trying to hold onto any hope until we heard the news.
One thing that may not have been told. Last year, on the 22nd of May mom had to go home to be with siblings so Meemaw could come into town. The thing is, there was a pit in her stomach like something was wrong. At 11pm she called the picu and talked to the nurse, being reassured everything was fine. He even held up the phone so mom could talk to her. Tell her she loved her and say goodnight. That she would be back in the morning. Not knowing that was the last time Arya was going to truly hear her voice like that. Mom also had a dream before the call about Arya saying she was going to be okay and she was better now, waking her from a deep sleep to check her phone. This was only 2 hours before.
It has been a roller coaster of a day. Our minds and bodies remember. Sleep has been difficult. Emotions are high. At the same time we are trying to push through to do better for ourselves and the memory of her.
All I can say for today is please, tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. Be kind to a stranger, you never know how much they might need it. And above all else trust yourself and be true to yourself. Also, go outside and enjoy the weather. She loved outdoors. I'm sad her last days she couldn't go outside at all. It couldn't be helped. The next 2 weeks are hard, but we will get through. We also will continue to do what we can for others. Help in any way possible. Just because it feels good to be a good person but also in her name because in her short amount of time with us she loved everyone.
