01/15/2025
đ„ Love, Loss, and the Alchemy of a Neurodivergent Mind đ„
It began on an ordinary day in 2018 when a UPS driver walked into my officeâand into my life. A cheeky grade-school-style note sparked something magical, and soon, Rick became the love of my life. We shared a bond so deep it felt otherworldly. But like many great loves, ours carried its shadows.
Rick battled his demons, protecting me and my son from a path he feared might harm us. His love was selfless, even if it meant keeping me at armâs length. Then, one day, he was gone. A phone call shattered my world, and I lost the man who lit up my soul.
Grief was suffocating, but navigating it with a neurodivergent mind brought unique challenges. The constant noiseâoverthinking, emotional overwhelm, and spirals of âwhat-ifsââkept me stuck in the pain. My mind replayed every moment, every word, and I felt like I might never escape the weight of it all.
But slowly, I learned to calm the chaos within. Through grounding practices, energy work, and moments of stillness, I found a way to quiet the noise and focus on healing. I began to rise from the ashes.
Rickâs love, even in loss, became my greatest teacher. His presenceâboth in life and spiritâguided me toward something extraordinary: alignment. I embraced personal growth, read transformative books (How to Be a Badass by Jen Sincero was pivotal), and discovered my purpose.
Today, Iâm a Reiki Master Teacher and spiritual coach, helping others calm their own storms and rediscover their light. Grief broke me open, but it also taught me that even in the deepest pain, there is beautyâand that a neurodivergent mind, once calmed, can be a powerful force for transformation.