09/03/2025
This time of year, in 2022, I was lying in a hospital bed waiting for brain surgery.
I guess my story starts out like this; I had no clue I had a Brain Tumor. I started losing strength on my right side and having a little bit of balance issues, so the personal trainer in me worked on exercises for strength and balance of course.
What led to them finding a tennis ball size tumor, was the terrible headache that progressively got worse and lasted over a week. As you can see on my text that I sent to a friend that day. (Which, by the way, the headaches had nothing to do with my situation. That was just a blessing in itself.)
My friend has had this text since that day and just sent it to me a couple of days ago. It brought up a lot of feelings. I am so glad she still had this text! As I look at it three years later, it was very much to the point.
I remember laying there that day, in shock. I remember laying there without my glasses and without my schedule in front of me trying to remember everyone that was on my schedule for the week that I needed to cancel and all the things I needed to take care of. I said, “For a week,” LOL! Well, it was longer than a week! Obviously, I had not wrapped my head around the entire situation at hand. At that moment, I needed to pull it together and take care of business. I needed to get my family and my peeps taken care of. Because that is what I do.
And then, I needed to focus 100 on healing. How it felt to be healed. Talk about what we were going to do when I was back. I had to focus on healing, not on the current situation. I had to reach for all the things that I could to feel grateful and happy in that moment.
The thing I don’t remember is sending that text. I had no idea what I said until I read it three years later.
Today, three years later, I am celebrating my journey. Today, I am here to remind you we all have our battles. Some of our battles are mental, some physical. I am here to remind you that healing is slow. I am here to remind you of the importance of doing the work mentally, physically, and spiritually even when you are NOT in your perfect place, especially when you are NOT in your perfect place. Today, I am here to remind you to hug your people a little bit tighter. And lastly, I am here to remind you to cherish the struggle that brought you tears because it’s proof you are still here.
Hugs and love to all. And much gratitude to everyone that helped me on this journey.
xx