07/22/2022
I again, this year, wasn't going to post about this this week, but as the week goes on, I feel like I need to acknowledge it...my cipro poisoning...
What happened?
Many of you already know because I post about this every year on the anniversary. One day I was teaching spinning classes, yoga and bootcamps, and then next day I was in a wheelchair. I could not add 1 plus 1. I was in severe pain (muscle, nerve and tendons) 24/7. I could not open a milk jug or squeeze a scrubby. I had to quit my job as a pharmacist, because I could not lift my body to do anything, and I also could not process numbers and words. All this, while being the single mom of four children.
Western medicine failed me, invalidated my symptoms, called it fibromyalgia (as they do for women when they can't figure out what is wrong). I was given antidepressants (that I never took), and sent on my way. No worries. I figured it out myself. Even with a fraction of my brain working, I was able to piece together research and over the course of a few years, heal myself and reclaim my life. It was UGLY. But I did it. I would say I am 95% recovered.
I have come so far from that point 8 years ago, that facebook had to remind me that this was the week that completely changed my life. Of course there are other weeks since then that have also completely changed my life. But this particular experience helped me prepare myself for something far more life altering and far more impactful.
No experience comes to us as punishment. Sometimes it takes a few years to understand why we go through something. Ahhhh....my poorly wrapped gift...
While this experience still can trigger some powerful emotions, I can say that it has made me stronger and smarter (dare I say). I am resilient and I know that my body can heal itself if I give it the right things...mind, body and spirit.
I acknowledge you, my cipro poisoning. I detest the memory of you, but I value the lessons, the knowledge, the people I have met from around the world who I have been able to help heal from this debilitating condition, and the preparation you provided for something even bigger than myself...
Eight years ago today, I started on a downward spiral to being crippled. Today, I am the strongest I have been since that day. Honoring my resilience and my resolve and my drive to NEVER take NO for an answer.