04/09/2025
Just when I'm like "hey I feel pretty good." The universe steps in and kicks my ass back down. One thing would be doable, two manageable, but everything at once, omg. My reynards is full blast pain, my spasms are off the charts down my legs, in my back, in my feet, both of them. I have the chills like I'm multiplying, the bone in my left foot hurts so much I feel like digging in that hole to cut it myself. And to top it all off my back, I have not been able to walk for almost 24 hours without excruciating mind-numbing debilitating pain. Julian unfortunately had to take an Uber to school, and those that have a problem with that can f off for real, and then walked the two and a half miles home, so I didn't have to get up. He then came home cuddled with me and made us dinner, which I tried so hard to eat, but I have zero appetite right now. I did drink the coffee he made, it was pretty good. His sandwiches were good also!!! I hate that my health put so many issues and stress on him it should not be like this. He's 14, and he should not have to go through this. He called me once from school to check in on me. I appreciate God and the universe so much for sending me the most gentle, loving, and caring Soul there ever was. But I call out to both God and the universe to give this kid a break. #