11/01/2025
TW: s.e.xual assault, r.a.p.e and suicid.e
Everything kept in darkness will be shouted from the rooftops!
And may all those who are suffering find the healing, freedom, and empowerment they deserve ❤
I have a deep well of compassion for trauma survivors, having survived complex trauma in my own life from a very young age. In my work I am passionate about supporting trauma in getting the help they need to release them from the bo***ge and shame they have experienced and are still trying to work through. Sometimes I'm able to support them on my own and I sometimes work in conjunction with their therapist to ensure they get all the professional support they need.
Suffering in its own way breeds compassion and even if I haven't had the same trauma as the student I am working with, the depths of my own suffering gives me a knowing of how to meet them in those dark and sometimes unsafe feeling places.
While I've been in my own personal trauma healing journey with various trauma therapists over the last 20 years, I continue to uncover the layers of unprocessed emotions peeling the layers of the onion to release the shame and embrace my own freedom.
Yesterday, I had some pretty deep revelations into my own s.e.xual trauma which I had never realized I had before. I consider myself pretty aware and conscious as I have a very deep commitment to personal growth and therapy as I'm determined to break the cycle of abuse and support my own mental wellness and health instead of the dysfunction of epigenetic trauma that I inherited.
Yet, yesterday I uncovered some pretty confronting and disorienting s.ex.ual trauma that I didn't even know was there. My heart goes out to all survivors who are battling demons that very few people can see and struggles that feel like trip wires but we're navigating everyday.
Some of you know I've done a lot of advocacy work, especially for women who have been r***d in the name of s*xual healing, specifically by Charles Muir and TJ Bartell. I spent a whole year supporting survivors both on the front lines and behind the scenes as we tried to get so-called "source ta**ra" (SSTY) closed down. I received threats from multiple staff members including women teachers like Leah Alchin and even Lynda Ceasara who continued to teach with TJ bartell even once the r**e cases were exposed. I personally spoke to 40 women over a 40 year span who had been s*xually assaulted and even anally r***d by Charles himself. TJ Barrel got his lawyers to send me a cease and desist letter. Charles Muir's wife Christy Muir even callled me repeatedly until eventually I called for support from the FBI.
Unfortunately, none of these people have ever been brought to justice. The pain and anguish of the survivors remains with no acknowledgement from SSTY. The school is still operating out of Sacramento now I believe with Charles Muir's son Orion taking over as his father has retired. Some of the survivors fought and even one in court despite the police refusing to prosecute even with filed police reports and unfortunately the decisions in court were simply overturned when TJ Bartel appealed.
I remain incredibly proud of survivals like Virginia Roberts Guiffre who I have the strength to stand up to violations even worse than I could imagine. Please read her memoir (unless of course it is too triggering of your owen trauma), and you will see in agonizing detail, the extent to which she stood up to the vile s*x trafficking and abuse she endured for years upon years.
Virginia Guiffre had the courage and determination to stand up to high profile people like , (who that as***le in the White House is now trying to pardon and who is likely one of the men who enjoyed getting his own rocks off with teenage girls).
While so-called prince Andrew was trying to silence Virginia, thankfully he has now been kicked out of his royal home and stripped of his titles, even as a prince which he thought he was entitled to purely by his birthright.
While none of these things will bring and make up for the su***de of Virginia and the pain and trauma of many other survivors, I am so proud of her for writing her book to have her voice speaking even now beyond the grave and taking these powerful and seemingly untouchable men down.
Here is to all the survivors, many of whom did not feel safe enough to come out and use their own voices to speak up as they are still dealing with their own PTSD and terrified by the threats of their abusers. Part of why I am so passionate about supporting the wounded and those struggling is because I know firsthand how excruciatingly painful it is to suffer at the hands of people who tormented you.
Please take a moment to ground, to connect with a friend and get some support if you need to. After reading this, go outside and feel the sun on your skin and say a little prayer for all those who are still suffering . May all who are in pain and suffering find the healing the need ❤
After an expose chronicled numerous accusations of s*xual assault and r**e against teacher TJ Bartel, Source Ta**ra has defended him. No one at the school has been willing to take the allegations seriously or to condemn TJ’s actions, diminishing the trust and integrity of the organization. This ar...
