07/31/2023
Being able to admit the worst about yourself says more about your character than denying the possibility you could actually be the problem.
Hurt people hurt people. There is a chemistry to hurt. It has a very specific and profound effect on the brain. Not every hurt is the same so the results may vary but essentially once you experience hurt it creates a new neurological pathway in the brain that causes you to see life differently. When you live in that pathway because of habits and atmosphere of hurt, you tend to forget life outside of the hurt.
My psychosis was an escape for me. I felt like there was no way to physically escape what I was experiencing so instead I would willingly check out.
Not so sure my family got to experience the same escape, however I am determined to bring them with me by manifesting the heaven I’ve encountered during my escape.
Life has been difficult for a lot of people not just us. So many people are living a reality they wish they could escape. That’s where Jesus comes in. Everyone is meant to experience this escape one way or another. Maybe not to the extreme I went to, what can I say I’m an extreme kinda person.
The spirit is subject to the prophet. We are vessels of the Holy Spirit, Ruach Elohim, deep breaths. What you release on the exhale is for the Lord. Give him all of you, release everything. When you let go of what you’re running from. Accept the worst case scenario and the possibilities that come with it, then fully release it. Let it out in love, You make room for blessing. More Holy Spirit.
That’s how he cleanses us on the deep levels. Holy Spirit can only fill the spots you’re willing to release. If you keep holding on to this idea that there is nothing wrong with you, Holy Spirit can’t fill it with newness.
Being a vessel means you’re going to get dirty from being used. Even if it is to just hold water, eventually you will need a fresh cup. So now back to my beginning statement. Being able to admit you could be the problem says more about your character than denying you need to be cleaned.
If you’re living life, you need a wash because this life ain’t easy, it’s messy in it’s self and until we can start to recognize when we need our soul washed this life is gonna stay messy.
Messy is ok in it’s time and season when handled with care. Heaven is that place to take our messy, dispose of it properly with acceptance then release. When done properly we can go back into life clean and joyous full of new holy spirit.
My psychosis took me to heaven and now I’m bringing it home. It’s messy but we are working on acceptance and release. What ever goes with the release goes with the release.