Goddess Academy

08/14/2023

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06/14/2023

The most selfless thing you can do for the world is to take a deep breath for yourself 🙌

01/07/2021

"You. As heroine, as legend, every mundane day. May awaken and inspire you to see who you are.
Because I am the definition of a powerful woman.
I love with my whole body, heart, and soul.
I say whatever the f**k is on my mind.
I make huge mistakes proudly.
I rage with as much passion as I grieve.
I live my poetry, my art.
I mother my child like a she-wolf.
I risk my life to live my truth.
I laugh easily and mostly at myself.
I would sell my soul for a night of ecstasy.
And every day I'm serving my Goddess, and my God, with every cell of my being.
In other words I'm just like you."

Mama Gena

05/05/2020

https://youtu.be/Vnbi2tiTHAk

The restoration of balance within the human race is not about decreasing masculine power while increasing feminine power; as if we were sitting on some kind ...

11/29/2019

Happy Thanksgiving!

08/27/2019

What is it to live a life fulfilled? This is one of those questions that seems to mean something different to everyone. And the answer changes for each person as life goes on or ends.

I have to laugh at how It often takes a trauma to heal from past traumas. Ironic that the door to your old pain is through fresh pain. Having a fresh wound that cuts to the bone allows you to see how your bones healed funny and may need to be re-broken to heal properly.

I remember my reaction after my Mom passed. Following the shock, my life had no meaning, nothing mattered. I hated my home that I previously loved. Everything felt wrong. The existential crisis settled in. If you've ever lost someone, you may recognize the thought processes of trying to make sense out of where your loved ones disappear to. Why, how, what for? Where are they and why can't I have them here with me. Suicidal thoughts are quite common, mine were partly due to wanting the answers. I was angry and wanted to know. I didn't want to wait to find out. Patience has never been one of my better developed skills.

I didn't know that losing my mom would help me face my past in the most needed and powerful ways. I didn't know I would get myself back at the cost of her loss. OUCH!

I know if I'd had the choice I would have chosen to keep her instead. And it kills me to acknowledge that I had to pay such a high price to get me to do my work. I spend on average 3 to 5 nights a week still crying my eyes out and flailing my body all over the place, clutching my heart with one hand and holding myself in a half hug with the other while I feel how much I miss her and then how much I miss them both. I feel the sadness and powerlessness of not being able to save them. And my heart breaks a little more, a little deeper, until I discover new resiliency and step up to greet myself. I allow the tears, the cussing, the pain to flow. I allow my anger to be heard. And my sadness to weep. And I write from this place. Knowing that people everywhere know this place. It's not pleasant. But it is human. I've come to value the darkness as if it holds keys of the universe, because it does. It holds keys to our spirit, humanity and connection.

I love the Rumi saying "You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens." I feel safe here, where I used to be terrified of the hurt.

As I research Shamanic journeys the main theme I observe is a journey that pushes people past their beliefs, comfort zones and identity. This journey is a chance to connect to your biggest fears, your sense of total powerlessness and surrender to what you believe supports you i.e. God, ancestors, spirit... A connection takes place of total empowerment through surrender to your limitlessness. I'm reminded of "The Night in Rusty Armor" where, at the end of his journey, our hero is clinging to the edge of a cliff. As he loses his grip finger by finger he notices an inscription on the cliffside in front of his face. It says,

"Though this universe I own,
I possess not a thing,
For I cannot know the unknown
if to the known I cling."

In that pivotal moment our hero knight realizes he has to let go of everything to truly be free to discover what is. And he releases his grip on the mountain side. As he falls and completely surrenders. As he falls he reflects his life and takes full accountability for every decision he'd made about himself. This moment of awareness of his place in the power he has wielded over his experience is what changes his perception from being a victim to being the creator. His direction shifts and he begins to fall upward.

I know it hurts to feel all the things, and sometimes I still avoid getting in deep. But my shamanic journey was one of dying with my mom. In doing so I gave up my job, my home, my romantic relationship, my cats, my family and my safety. My world had to turn completely upside down. I had to let go of everything to get to a place where I could reclaim myself. (I have since reclaimed most of these things.)

The journey continues. Each day I feel more like a full person. Each day I feel more desire to connect spiritually. Each day I feel more desire to be loved and loving. It's like I've been given the go ahead to fulfill my purpose. I'm where I'm supposed to be, I'm open to more. And I'm listening for guidance. Perhaps, for some, this is a life fulfilled. And for others not so much. I'm okay either way. I'm just glad I am where I'm at today. Thanks for reading.

08/16/2019

Hello Beautiful Goddesses. Tonight is the Full moon in Aquarius. An air sign. Full moons are a time for letting go, and shifting energy. Here is a little ritual to align with the moon.

Light a candle, sit quietly in the dark with only the light of the candle bathing you.

Take the problem you are most caught up with today. Become aware of the feelings associated with this problem. Point to them in your body, where do these feelings live in you.

Then, physically use your hands and imagination you pull out these feelings and hold them in front of you. Become aware of what they look like, shape, movement, weight, texture, color, sound.

Kindly ask these feelings what they need to say. Listen with an open mind and an open heart, with full acceptance of their expression. Breath into and say yes to those feelings and their expression.

If you find you have judgment about having these feelings, do this exercise a second time with your judgements.

After you have sat with and allowed your feelings, ask your self if it's okay to let them go or if if they've changed perhaps they have been replaced with a new feeling, decide if you would like to let that new feeling move into the place the old feeling lived, if so, imagine adding love and compassion to your new feelings and put them into your body where the old feelings used to live.

If you decide it's better to let them go, softly blow your feelings into your candle to be fully transmuted and given back to God, the Universe, Source or Spirit, what ever you desire. Let the fire consume the air and your feelings, and turn them to flame and transition to smoke where they will then be safely delivered to the power of your choosing.

When you have completed your release and transition, notice how you feel and if there are any other feelings that you feel need to be attended to. If so, repeat the exercise.

Next decide if there is something else you'd like to experience. Allow your power source to send you a gift with the resource or feelings you desire. See yourself receive the gift, hold it in your hands, become aware of it's shape, color, texture, movement. Then accept it into your body. Imagine this resource coloring your whole self inside and out with it's colors. allow the feelings to be felt all over as if you are being showered and massaged with them. Let it feel you with pleasure and delight. Feel free to giggle, laugh, moan, or shout with joy.

Finish your ritual with a gratitude dance in celebration, turn on your favorite music and dance like you mean it. Like you know how supported you are by yourself, power source, and all that is.

Happy Full moon every one! If you do this exercise feel free to post, in the comments below, about what you released and took on during the ritual. Remember, you are the most precious resource you have. You deserve to love yourself in every way. Celebrate you and your power as often as you can. And your divinity will glow with the light of a thousand suns.

08/01/2019

The words:

After my super exposed post yesterday I had to do quite a lot of processing on what I wrote about. I want to take a moment to thank every one for their kindness. That was really difficult to write, share and see. I had no idea i still had so much trauma about that event.

I heard from some other women who have had trouble with their men. They are not getting the support they need with birth control options. As I was journaling today I came up with some words I'd like to share. Sometimes drawing boundaries can be difficult if you don't have the words. So I'm gonna lay this out, you take from it what works for you and modify it as needed for your relationship.

For the Ladies
Setting boundaries in the bed room:
Start by showing up consciously with presence. Sit your man down and tell him, " The next time we make love, I want to do it fully. I want to meet you with heart, mind, body and spirit. I want us both to share our intentions, desires, and boundaries. And I want this to be the new normal for us."

Listen to any concerns he my have, let him ask questions about what that may look like. And be clear and honest with him, even use the word Honestly. "Honestly honey, when we get together sometimes we rush, or we don't use a condom, or you get yours and I get left to fend for myself."" I feel like we are missing the connection and I want more love in the game, more respect and and I want to see you and have you see me. You know, build intimacy."

Again listen to his reply, and try not to get triggered if he gets caught in his own sense of rejection. Stay clear about your feelings. Try to be really honest. Don't throw accusations. DO own your feelings. It's okay if he doesn't want to meet you where you are at. He may need a minute to come around to the idea because his pride may be hurt by your lack of satisfaction. Or maybe it's okay to just take s*x off the table for a minute until you can go to therapy together and work through some things that really need attention.

When you are both ready for that first magical night the conversation may look something like this.
You,"Are you ready to connect?"
Him, "Yes, you start."
You, "My intention is to surrender completely and fully revel in being ravished by you.
My desire is to start slow, warm up with some yummy foreplay, and when my body is fully sensitized, let you know to have your way with me.
My boundaries are that we use a condom from beginning to end without negotiation. And no a**l pe*******on."

If he still feels the need to negotiate the use of a condom simply say, "No condom, No P***y." If he continues to push you can tell him to leave, "Game over. We're done here."

If he doesn't stop to negotiate, then it's his turn to lay out his Intentions, desires and boundaries. I won't go over that.
I just wanted to give an example and some words to use. Of course it's ok to change your mind if you feel like you want something different. But it should not be because you feel pushed to please someone else and you are actually compromising your boundaries that you put there so you would feel safe.

When you both put boundaries on the table it's important to respect who's ever boundaries stop the most short. For example one of you wants to stop at first base the other at second. You both need to stop at first base.

For the Men:
We set boundaries to feel safe, we make requests to feel safe. As the protector in the relationship it's up to you to show up and provide that safety for your woman. This is for emotional, physical and mental safety it's a whole package. Listening to your woman's needs and being able to deliver from a place of personal responsibility and internal strength creates a place for her to be real with you, trust you and share with you all the glorious gifts she has. My request is that you own your space as a warrior and champion for your relationship and your family. This is a call to courage to really step up, hear her, see her and know that if she is making a request or being vulnerable with you, she is entrusting you with the great honor of her love and her safety. Please take care to return the favor with full presence and responsibility.

I hope this helps. Love you all!