Chaotic Click Clacks

09/25/2024

Here's a glimpse of some of the story of what I have had to deal with regarding Remick and her friends.

09/25/2024

08/28/2024

And when I opened up spotify to listen to music before bed I notice she already deleted it which tells you that it was definitely meant to be intimidation for me. Gaslighters want to make you doubt your own reality and think you are the crazy one so they can control you. And if they can make everyone else think you're crazy you will never be believed. And this is the s**t I've had to deal with for 2 years. I have had enough. I do not want her, I want her to stay away from me. Am I clear to the people reporting back to her on my page?!

08/28/2024

I am so relieved this story is finally coming to an end. My one request is that you don't go out of your way to harass anyone just simply unfollow and disengage. If you are friends with any of them, please do not spy on me and pass information back to her please do not talk about me with her or her friend at all. I literally feel vulnerable and unsafe having to do this at all but ut has to stop. I at no point gave her any reason what so ever to believe we were in a relationship, a flirtation, or that there was potential for a romantic relationship. I at no point have wanted a romantic relationship in real life with her. And I will talk about why, it has nothing to do with anything superficial it has to do with her lack of consistency and her hypercriticalness. The lack of kindness that she has shown to me pretty much is the biggest reason. Also, she has shown lots of codependent behavior and I am codependency adverse because trauma reasons. I'll link the playlist in the comments. Thank you all for being very supportive and affirming of my experience.

08/26/2024

Post 18 of TBD. You can go review the footage yourself if you would like to confirm what I am saying as it is all available for review on the Welcome to Salem playlist on the Tales from the Forgotten Troupe YouTube channel. But I don't expect anyone to watch hours of footage so I provided some context in this post of the reality of the situation but please feel free to review the footage. And as a tip- which was my saving grace in all of this- when someone lodges a serious complaint against you around something, ask them to provide concrete examples of times that this happened because she made the claim "Jenna has a pattern of behavior of not respecting the agency of other players" and when the footage got reviewed, it was shown that this is not a valid statement. Her pattern of behavior with me is getting everyone around me to not trust me and to shame blame and gaslight me and I have backed that up with evidence. Beware of people who accuse you of things that you are not doing, it is likely a projection especially if they cannot provide concrete examples. Being opinionated, outspoken, and someone who isn't easily manipulated is not the same thing as being controlling. In fact, one might ask themselves how i got so incredibly sensitive to being labelled and bullied and manipulated (pssst its because i was heavily abused and emotionally manipulated starting real early in life and have spent literal decades in therapy to process and heal). People have the opportunity to provide alternate ideas, disagree, or not participate and I will always respect all of that. And do not ever assume that because my characters are a certain way it means that I am. I don't play out my unresolved issues at the table 90% of the time. I rolled the backstory for AA and admittedly she had some similar trauma to my own as we rolled on a table for backstories it was sort of random more than a choice. Mostly I base my characters on ppl in history, books, and my own unhinged imagination. Sometimes I literally will base a character on a joke or meme so everyone understands my characters are not that deep.

08/22/2024

I'm honestly just tired. They purposefully follow me around to different discords show up to support streams I am also supporting. This girl walked into my life and started rumors about me after I was nothing but kind to her in an attempt to try to trauma bond me to her. Isolating someone in an attempt to trauma bond them is one of the most abusive thing you can do to another person. I would like to say it wasn't intentional but the level of effort she has put into getting others to join in on the public gaslighting has been insane. I'm literally just human being out here living my life and trying to heal from my complex PTSD that I got from being raised by two individuals that struggle with severe mental health issues. I am kind to people and try to be very inclusive because I know what it is like to be picked on and bullied by your own parents I spent a good portion of my life trauma bonded to my father and most of my life parenting the people who were supposed to parent me and then I dedicated my life to helping other heal from their trauma. I don't deserve to be bullied and publicly humiliated and gaslit because of false narratives that people pushed. It is difficult to say whether it is malice or unaddressed mental health issues but either way I did nothing to deserve what has been done to me and I deserve to feel safe in my community and in public places. I deserve to live a peaceful and happy life free from people who want to cause me harm by sabotaging my friendships and friend groups. People who have never met or interacted with me have gotten involved in this nonsense and while I hope that they were ignorant to what they were doing, I have no way of knowing that since no one has bothered to ask me about what actually happened.

08/05/2024

Post 17 of TBD. I want to be clear I am not looking to punish anyone but I am tired of feeling afraid and alone because people don't have respect for boundaries, feel too much shame to be accountable for harm they cause to people, are uncomfortable with others who are righteously angry about the wrongs done to them, take a person on faith because she cries loudly and plays the victim well, or are too cowardly to stand up for what is right. Putting my trauma on display in order to get my peace is absolutely something I should not have to do and yet here we are. Nevermind that I am still healing from a brain injury (it takes 6 months for the brain to heal completely from and injury like the one I had) and the last thing I need to feel unsafe and on edge because I don't know who is and isn't feeding information to someone who doesn't have good intentions for me and is not a safe person to be around because not only does she disregard my boundaries she makes up unfounded and unsubstantiated stories about me. 'No' is an entire sentence and I am not going to be explaining myself after this is done. If I don't associate with someone, I probably have a good reason for it. You not understanding or thinking it was a misunderstanding doesn't change that the damage done to me or the impact of people not even bothering to hear my side of things. But I know it wasn't a misunderstanding it was way worse than I even originally believed. I myself was minimizing and making excuses for her. But at the end of the day there is zero excuse for the things that have been done to me and people not hearing me out. I don't even care about apologies I just want to live my life in peace. I want Remick Palmer and people closely and moderately associated with her to stay away from me. I have real life responsibilities and my own healing from complex PTSD to deal with, I don't want to have to live my life on eggshells or wondering who is feeding information back to her. So if you can't hold a strong boundary or at least stay in your lane, and you are associated with her please stay away from me.

08/04/2024

Post 16 of TBD. I do good things because I geniuinely care not because I want to get ahead or paint myself as some sort of saint or even for the props or my ego. I don't care if people think I'm a s**tty person, frankly you can believe whatever you want about me but if you have bad intentions or want to use me for my body or my finances or to get revenge or the things I can do for you- please stay away from me. I would've liked to just walk away from the situations with Remick and move on with my life, she has made this impossible for me. I did nothing to deserve the things I have been put through by her and so many of my former friends it really made question my own reality and worth as a human being, and made me question whether I was chasing or trying to earn acceptance as is common amongst adults who were emotinally abused as children. Fun fact: if it's not an enthusiastic, informed, and explicit 'yes' it is not consent. Remick has romanticized this obsessive and possessive stalker love and deluded herself into thinking that I am just playing power games or "hard to get" or being stubborn. No, she and people who I used to consider friends (and people who are her friends and have never met me) have done actual emotional harm to me by retraumatizing me in very intentional ways. She would data gather on me purposely to use it to better try to emotionally manipulate me. She would cause chaos intentionally to cause confusion which is likely why she took such offense to being referred to as a "chaos gremlin" (nevermind that I referred to everyone that day). I have watched her weaponize guilt and slowly I have watched my former friend Lee turn more and more callous, manipulative, defensive, and prideful. It's been like watching someone you cared about and deeply respected for their kind heart slowly and painfully disregard their personal values and let people chip away at their self worth and confidence. Look up "narcisisstic fleas" to get more education on the effects of being around narcisisstic people long term. 🌈

08/02/2024

Post 15 of TBD. The last time I attempted to contact Lee was like a year ago and I was asking if Lee was okay. I spent 3 months in very intense trauma therapy after all of the gaslighting and DARVO and intentional chaos and confusion Remick caused and research shows that emotional abuse can cause actual brain damage and ptsd symptoms. The screenshots she sent are out of context but most things are with Remick. And it makes her very angry that this neurodivergent picks up on all the tiny details and twists in her stories and plans. Also, can you out someone who has a stream that is public and markets themselves as all q***r? DARVO again bur it is suspicious she knows that term because many therapist don't even know that acronym.
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08/01/2024

Post 14 of TBD.
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08/01/2024

Post 13 of TBD. It was clear Remick felt possessive of me for some reason and wanted to sabotage all my close friendships which is an extremely toxic thing to do and it made no sense since she had bever been more than surface level nice to me while actually ruining my life behind the scenes by using abuse by proxy (when we convince others to abuse others on our behalf which is probably bc I just kept setting boundaries when she tried to directly do toxic things to me or I would ignore her). Remick pretends to be all unsure and anxious but she is far more aware and intentional than anyone fully realized but I'll give her this she is a very good actress but I am hyper perceptive of toxic behaviors because of how toxic my home was growing up. I start to feel physically unwell when there is covert emotional abuse near me. Charlie likes to joke that I am the toxic behavior detector if I am suddenly triggered out of seemingly no where someone is being covertly emotionally abusive. I have a very strong reaction to gaslighting because I spent my childhood trying to decipher between my caregivers' gaslighting, their delusions, and reality. 🌈

08/01/2024

Post 12 of TBD. Here is verification that I did in fact check with her regarding her mental health but again you don't get to make your mental health the responsibility if other people. Also, her gaslighting my friend and acting as if she doesn't understand why she was removed after attempting to change account passwords less than a week before. I had to remake an entire beacons page and we had to redo graphics and all kinds of other things simply because I said I was no longer comfortable playing games with someone who was making me feel like no matter what I do it was wrong and like I had to read her mind in order to not have her cause problems. If you are not able to communicate effectively, that is an issue you absolutely need to work on before you can expect to be a part of a livestream run by a team and a part of any RPG group. Causing chaos on purpose and causing issues is absolutely a covert abuse tactic and science has shown it can cause longterm brain damage. Also, notice how upset she is that Lee was removed from the discord. Was it because she was going to use gaslighting by proxy to gain access to me again? It wouldn't be the first time she used that tactic with me.