06/29/2022
Cancer changes you because every bit of trust you had in life is questioned in an instant and every instant after.
Just because you are "cancer free" doesn't mean you are 'mentally cancer free.' Cancer shows you your mortality like looking in the mirror. It puts life into perspective, because not everyone is a survivor.
I am a strong, but I break. I've been broken many times over the past 6 years. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. There have been times where I have wanted to give up. And I know there are those that think and say she should just get over it.
This weekend was what I've been searching for. Validation that my stuggle is real. Because with that, others understood me and I understood them. We understood eachother without even a word spoken. This weekend was the first time since my cancer I have felt completely comfortable in my own skin again. I felt whole again and
I fought like hell to get here.
I'm so grateful to these women who trusted me to hold a safe space for them. Grateful for those who have supported Shay's Warriors, because life after cancer matters.
When I wrote, it wasn't about me. It was about finding connection and understanding. It was and is about moving forward, feeling supported, uplifted, seen, heard, and loved. This weekend was that and so much more. This weekend was built with so much tender love.
Thank you for bringing the colors and smiles to life. for being a YES four years ago. Thank you to my board you now understand what has been in my head and in my heart. Thank you to for keeping my timelines and being my friend. for the love you poured into each of us all weekend, and the grace you gave showed me. for capturing the perfect moments, and for the moving and such healing music.
This weekend was perfect in every... single...way.
I AM Grateful.
I AM Hopeful
I AM Blessed