02/28/2025
Sooooo not only do I have a big back I have a broke back !!! Saw Neurosurgeon yesterday Surgery is the only option per HIS Report (I still no the ULTIMATE PHYSICIAN in whose report i will believe) he says he's going to have to fuse l4 and l5 with metal plates and screws. I have a stress fracture which means its completly broken at L6 so he can't fuse that one so he will remove and insert titanium and spacer . The earliest he can do is March 12 because he will need assistance. Stay one to two nights depending on how I do with pain control. I ask for prayers for me specifically mentally as this is wearing on my joy and peace. I feel like a failure. Ive missed 2 of Kendall competitions and possibly his 3rd as it is 16 days after my anticipated surgery. My last two babies are 2 and a half and 1 and half so I haven't been the same Nana to them that Mahala, Caden and Lakhaza got. I miss my outings with families, church and SIMPLY being who I am. To MOST of my patients thank you. Thank you for understanding the past year my pain and tears. Thank you for sending an encouraging word, the calls and prayers. Ive had several pts stop me and say can I pray for you. I pray that this will end my surgical journey for at least 68 years or so. To my church family thank you gor being a constant in my life. I mean a Pastor that will come in the middle of my work day to lay hands on me and pray. Thank you ALL for the kindness.