08/31/2021
I am so sorry for all the bad things that happened to us in our short life together here on the outside of those prison doors. It started a long time before you were even born. My life ruined your life before it even got started but no one seems to understands how that would make your life worse but it did. You had to grow up with a Mom that had been to hell and back by the time you arrived. I wish we could do a do over in our life but we can't. The tears still fall for all the things I wish I could do over. I tried so hard to make things work for us but we were headed down that wrong road from the start. I understand why you wanted to get away from here so bad and you met up with people that wanted to get away like you and that made for bad things happening. I hurt for you, Karen, and Crystal and the Mullins boy. You four were so much alike. You knew if you could just get away for a little while that your Dad would get you back home when you were ready. You had no idea it would all turn out to be heart breaking for all of us. Tash I love you more than life itself but we just don't have any way we can get a lawyer that wants so much money. I know there are people out there with money to burn but we don't know them. God will see us through this, we just have to keep believing and trusting him to do it. I am so sorry for the things we went through in our short life here on the outside. I love you and I love God and am just putting it in his hands for getting you released from that prison before I am not here anymore. I love you my baby girl.