11/14/2022
This weekend was a great reminder of how far I've come with my relationship to my body.
Some days I get out on a trail & I can *feel* that I'm depleted and need restoration and that will be the hike I have. Slow, steady with ample breaks and pauses (and it still feels difficult!) Some days the switchbacks are a breeze and conversation flows. Neither of these are indicators of my worth or even of what my abilities are, they're just indicators of what I need *in this moment*. I've been very heady and planful these last couple of weeks and my rest, nutrition, hydration, social bucket, & freedom of outdoor movement had been deprioritized. Saturday was a *hard* day, what I knew to be an easy (though mostly uphill!) meander felt effortful, laborious and I wasn't able to make it up there with the easy strength that I often experience. A few years ago, I would have had a spiral about this- my internal judgements around weight and health would have prevented me from seeing that this was a moment, rather than the whole picture, at the end of a long haul with poor air quality and isn't it amazing that I can manage to pack myself out and up into the vital sunshine?
So. Gratitude for growth and perspective and having many experiences in this body good and bad to teach me how to handle it with care. Sunday? Welp, we threw down our yoga mats after a day of errands and did some intuitive stretching that went on for over an hour because it just felt so good!
I've been watching myself focusing on school, home, work, and preparing to move my practice and have appreciated my ability to juggle and shift as things came. This week will bring more of the same and I feel fortified and energized to walk into it with a cup full of deliberate connection, home cooked meals, sunshine, tea, movement & deep, deep rest.
I hope you have a beautiful week too, and can't wait to see you soon ππππ§‘πππππ