08/21/2023
5 years ago this boy was born on August 14th,
He is a walking example of proving Dr's wrong and showing the miracles our God can do.
Specialist from Nortons children hospital which is ranked number 1 in KY told me that by the time jensan was 5 years old we would be walking into kindergarten with a very bad speech delay and a rag or bib attached to him because of the slobber he had that was so bad, he also told me that jensan would not thrive in school, told me that my baby would have significant delays, that his sensory disorder was so bad that basically he hurt when I would pick him up. And that he would be in therapies all of his life.
5 YEARS LATER: He does not slobber as bad any more, he is finishing his last year in preschool and well beyond ahead of some of his peers, he has 2 therapies at school and only attends speech outside of school, he does have a speech delay but it's so much better than what it was the day he started preschool 2 years ago. Don't get me wrong we have great days,good days,bad days,sad days, horrible days, he also does have some delays that he is working through, buttttt he is not the child that these Dr's. Prepared me for. I believe he is not this child that I was preparing for because I put all of my time into him. I gave up everything, put my baby child and husband on the back burner for jensan and all of his therapies,Dr's appt. Hospital stays because we lived in Nortons children hospital on floor 4 for a good 2 or 3 months off and on.
Life with Jensan hasn't been easy, there were times I didn't sleep for the first 4 months of his life, for the first 3 years he didn't stay with anyone because he lived on mommy milk all day and night long, we gave up on outings to restaurants, hotels, zoos and everything else that we use to do all the time with jesse because jensan screamed and cried and literally we had no peace or fun.
As he has gotten older he is so much fun, he is funny, he loves hotels,the beach,pools, he wants to be a big brother like Jesse so bad that he can't stand it, let's just be real he wants to be Jesse robert so bad that it literally hurts his heart sometimes. He is so smart and says the biggest words sometimes. He does have his moments where he cries all day or he destroys a room in a flash because he's angry.
Now I know all of his triggers, if that means we leave a setting with friends we leave, grocery pick up has became the best thing because Walmart is a trigger for him after so many minuets of being in there. Toys are taken away sometimes and put in the garage because it's too much for him.
To sum this up, that kid that the specialists was preparing me for has gave me a wild ride and somedays I feel like we haven't got off, BUT God had other plans, I believe that God gave me Jensan and all the struggles with him to show me its ok to see things with many colors, that is ok to be on your own time because you will catch up whether it's walking,talking,writing your name or any other milestone in life, it's OK if he gets excited and flaps and jumps up and down until you think he's going through the living room floor. Most of all God made me stronger,made me stand still, made me see that he is way bigger than any Dr. Out there and that his plans are bigger and better than ours.
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