
08/14/2025
Restitution
One of the seven cardinal movements of labor. In lay terms, it means “the restoration of something lost or stolen.” In birth, it is the quiet, instinctive moment when a newborn turns their head back to center after the precise rotation that allowed the crown to emerge.
Lately, as both midwife and artist, I’ve been living in the seam between those two definitions. Reflecting on this past year—a holy transition from midwife to parent, to parent-midwife, to midwife-artist-parent—my work has felt like restitution: the restoration of lost arts, the retrieval of identities set down for a season. A return to a center only I can locate. Just as in birth, where restitution is rarely guided by the midwife, this return is a reflex I must enact on my own.
Art, too, is a form of restitution—because art is witness work, the work of testimony. It is witness to the one receiving care, to the parent, to the baby. But it is also the witness of the artist themselves: a record that someone was there, observing, interpreting, holding, remembering. My photographs testify not only to the moment but to my presence within it—they are evidence that I stood in that light, felt that air, carried that gaze. They are as much a witness of me as they are of what was before me.
Attending my first birth since giving birth myself has deepened this restoration. It feels like muscle memory in the soul—something that knows exactly how to find its way home.
(Photo from a birth I was privileged to witness both as midwife and photographer a few years ago.)