04/06/2020
We wanted to share this piece that one of the COPA patients wrote. Please feel free to share as we try to spread awareness of this perspective during this unprecedented time.
We’ve been preparing for this our whole lives...
I often wonder if it’s a good thing that I feel like I’ve been preparing for a pandemic my whole life. I’ve always washed my hands until they were chapped, I’ve always been afraid to be around sick people, and I’ve spent so much time in “isolation” from society. You may be thinking I am some kind of “doomsday prepper.” But no, I am just a person with virtually no immune system living during a global pandemic.
Over the last few weeks, we have all had our worlds turned upside down. Each day brings a new challenge with COVID-19. Some of us are locked inside-living in fear, while some continue to think they’re invincible. Here’s the deal, though, your choices during such a time affect all of us. And not all of us stand a fighting chance.
So what’s it like knowing that your chances of surviving COVID-19 are slim to none? Well, like I said, we’ve been training for this.. we wash our hands, stay away from sick people, etc.
However, the isolation this time is different. It’s so different. The family down the road I want to see? I can’t. Yes, even family is off limits. Let that sink in... I cannot see my family because it may cost me my life. I spend my days in the house, obsessively cleaning the floors, wondering if there’s any way COVID-19 has made it’s way into my home. I spend the days longing for social interaction. Whereas seeing a couple friends may be an option for you, it isn’t for me. Going to the drive thru is even out of the question.
You see, I have COPA syndrome, Primary Immune Deficiency, and a lot of other autoimmune diseases. I’m living with a dark cloud over my head every day. I may have been “prepared,” but the truth is, nothing could’ve prepared me for this. As I sit here and type this, my eyes fill with tears. Why? Because there’s only so much I can do. My well-being depends on strangers and their choices now. That’s scary.
So before you go out today and live your life as normal.. just think.. it’s not always just about you. I’ve been preparing my whole life, but will you protect my life?
Xoxoxo
-Am immunocompromised person living during a global pandemic