11/06/2015
Stress has gotten the best of me. I had my Benlysta infusion last Thursday. I haven't been outside for a walk since the day before.
My mother caught a cold the week before and my dad was starting to get sick on the day of my infusion. On Friday my mother started antibiotics for Bronchitis. On Saturday she fell and broke several ribs.
On Tuesday my Dada cold official turned into bronchitis. He started antibiotics and my mother was put on steroids and muscle relaxers along with her antibiotics and pain meds.
I have been spending as much time in my room as possible. I have a salt lamp, an air purifier with UV light that is suppose to kill germs and I have been running eucalyptus in my diffuser. Today my Himalayan salt pipe arrived and I started using that to. So far I have not caught their cold, but I have been in a terrible Lupus flare. Extreme exhausted, severe joint pain, nausea headaches, trouble breathing and every bone and muscle hurts. I have not even been dressed or out of the house since a week ago today except for my infusion. I feel better today and think I am starting to come out of this bad flare.
I think the stress of surgery being on and off again is getting to me as well as my mother breaking her ribs and trying to keep from catching my parents bronchitis. Maybe my over reactive immune system will keep me from catching this.
I am going to go take a long bath with Epsom salts and a good book from The Cat Who series. I have started doing coloring in adult coloring books, postcards, Christmas cards. When I color I can clear my mind.
I found a place in Mexico that I feel comfortable with for my surgery. Now On don't have a companion to go with me. My mother was going to go with me if I went. By the time she will be well enough to travel that far and spend that many days away from home it will be too late for me to have surgery.