Spirits Life Journey

11/13/2025

I just need to vent a minute.
If you choose to stay with me through this, I appreciate you. If you don't have the space to deal, I still appreciate you. Take care of you.

🫠 Vent post 🫠😪

I recently had a baby. I have a total of five kids and I already know they're the focus of my attention (I'm not mad about that, they're my babies no matter how old they are) but I'm mad that people think they can take advantage of me.

I hired a lady to handle my outside work, we have an agreement that has been in motion since August.

I have my son and suddenly, she thinks she's taking my clients. She literally asks me to have them pay her directly and she'd give me my business percentage out of it.
She's under my business name, my insurance and my good reputation (not to mention my business I built on my own)

I have ONE client pay her directly and suddenly, she feels entitled to every penny coming in.
When I politely explain why and how that's not happening. She literally ghosts me.

So, not even a full two weeks post birth, I'm hiring a fkn baby sitter so I can go back to work.

A part of me says, "Just let it go, focus on your craft/spiritual work" but honestly? That s**t doesn't pay my bills.

My kids have needs and I am not going to beg for s**t.

I know I have a plethora of services I can provide and the classes I'm creating... but, I haven't slept much in two days since my infant has been super gassy.. we've been up every hour plus my toddlers wacked out sleep schedule...
Who woke her brother up RIGHT after I put him to sleep and had just drifted off to sleep myself...

I'm tired, upset and really just at a loss of what to do..

My spirit team reminds me to "hang in there, a new beginning is on the way" but ffs.. it's never a big break i need. It's just enough to keep me pushing through.
I know I will just keep on, keeping on... but I'm seriously at my wits end with so many things and people..
My mouth is about to get really disrespectful.

11/13/2025

Whew, I am praying to the Most High for PATIENCE and SILENCE where my words(opinions) are just not needed.
Whew, please, heavens help keep me distracted and steer me away from the level of "what the fk did i just read" because....no... just no.

Thall shall not becomith thy lesson of virtue today! Nah. Nobody got time for it.
*steadily praying hard*
Whew. It's hot in here 🔥

11/13/2025

I used to say:
"I don't really have people or friends"

"My circle is small and I don't feel supported very much."

Granted, my human circle is small right now but there's so much more than just what the eye can see.
It's so much more than just my mere human existence in the now. Measuring what is only perceived in the now.

My circle is not small, its actually immeasurable.

The support I have from beings not of this world and beings of this world, not in human form far surpasses any form of measurement that can be fathomed by the human mind.

We, as humans, get so caught up in the present moments, we fail to identify those who have supported us in the past. Even if they don't in the present..
Those who will support us in the future. Even if we haven't met them yet.

Our souls know how supported we are.
It's time we acknowledged that and act like it.

11/12/2025

I have never shared something so fast as I did this.

Starbucks bear art by: 👏🏼

11/12/2025

Breastfeeding mommas do you struggle with healthy food options that still taste good?

I made breakfast this morning with muesli cereal, cinnamon, splash of vanilla, honey (for taste) and i added half a banana.

Major fiber, nutritional value on high and it's super yummy as well as filling.
Add in some yogurt with minimal sugar like a Greek yogurt and you're rocking a great morning for you and baby!

11/11/2025

Saturn says, "Patience, focus and hold steady your vision."

Neptune says, "It's already happened, just allow your body to catch up."

Uranus says, "ANARCHY!" 😂🤣😏

11/11/2025

Synchronization on high ✨️

My instapot had 10 hours and 15 minutes left at 10:15..
Woke up at 12:34 went back to sleep.
My toddler woke me up at 2:34.
Infant wakes me up around 4am.
Doesn't eat much but goes back to sleep.
Pumping, my phone shuts off and restarts at 4:22, battery at 55% and temperature is 22 degrees on the 11th of November.

Typing this at 4:32.
234 mirrored.

11/10/2025

It's definitely mercury retrograde!

I've started it off strong by speaking my truth.
I find it highly irritating when you have a very specific contract or terms written out and the other side thinks that it's okay to overstep.. take more than what was talked/written about.

My second house has been a big focus for me, one understanding why I have the planets there but also understanding the progressive transits of said planets. The base foundation for my chart plus the progressed transits have really put my focus on that house.

This is due to it being the foundation for so many other houses, based on my line up.
These values I'm finding in myself are being tested.

Mercury is in retrograde in my natal chart so I'm definitely not surprised this came to head the moment it went fully retrograde.

11/09/2025

Last night, I attended a class to help me, understand me better.

Human design is what astrology was for me years ago. Unknown and diverse. New terrain without a map.
I'm blessed to have a teacher who teaches in front of the class but also from a distance.

That allows me to ask the questions needed but also take the time that I absolutely need to digest.

This class, cracked me wide open in ways I didn't even think possible..

Listening to the class had my brain going, "Okay. Yeah that fits so well, holy s*t, that really really fits."

It was the after effects that kicked me straight down the long shot rabbit hole...
It was the realization that the distortion holding me back was the belief that i didn't need a tribe while... the whole time, I was angry the one I thought I was meant to have, didn't want me.

It kicked that illusion straight in the teeth. Shattered the mirror of deception and for the first time, I felt myself stand up and say, "I am worthy of the physical tribe. The one that doesn't need me to sit there, teaching them step by step how to human.. and then hold their hand while they figure out how to walk.. My people are the ones that come to me, already doing the work...but want to dig deeper, learn more, expand taller to reach the stars while growing deeper roots.. I deserve to be loved and its time I stopped seeking attention that is intimidated by me."

That was the biggest hit, that last part.
People are literally intimidated by me and its not because I'm mean (I can be) or violent... it's the fact I make them question their beliefs, their actions, their reality. I make them think/feel and most importantly. I hold them accountable.

I set the bar so high just existing, they don't even try to jump because they know they'll never reach it.
That's not me saying, "I'm better than them."
That's me saying, "I've done the work to achieve such heights. I've put the work in to break the cycles, to be better, to stand taller, to teach my children by example what is it is to be a decent human being.."

I stand on business yet I come from a place of love.
I stand for justice but I hold empathy and understanding for the reality that not everything is black and white..

When I say, this class literally cracked me open, I am not kidding. The depth of understanding, connection and pure motivation this brought me, can't be fully grasped in words..
I could sit here, all day, writing a book on how this just made sense of my entire fu***ng life.
The distortion I was born into, the cycles I am breaking and how when I finally relax, life happens through me, not too me.

If you've made it this far, you seriously need to check out Astral Flame 33 flame society on patreon..
Out of everyone I have ever met... she's the most driven, motivated and selfless person I've come across.

Now, she's allowed to be selfish but she does it in a selfless way..
One i relate too, all too well.
I throughly love the fact she has years worth of information ready for others to use to grow and heal.. If you're ready to do the work and find your freedom..
Go check her out. Seriously.

11/08/2025

Today, I went thrifting for pants..
I just recently had my son and during said pregnancy, I gained a considerable amount of weight.

Today, I realized what pants size I am..and before anyone thinks, "just wait, the weight might come off, especially since your breastfeeding."

Let me inform you. I don't want it too. I found my pants size and looked at myself in the mirror.... the younger version of me, probably would of cried and been upset...but me now?
I almost cried tears of joy at how healthy I look.

I'm not too thick for my body build nor am I too skinny which makes me look sickly (or on drugs)

I'm healthy, happy and I feel beautiful in my body.

So what I jiggle when I move.. now I want to dance and move more because that jiggle makes me feel like a whole ass woman.. like I've finally come home in my own body. I just turned thirty-two but for the first time, I feel like a real adult.

11/06/2025

I had a wild dream last night that was more revealing than I ever thought could come from such a short dream..

I realized that a lot of creators only create because they are receiving attention.
This isn't about money or baiting for views.. this is about those who seek to use your energy to sustain their own.
Vampires exist in movies as those who "want to suck your blood" (gotta read that in your best old school Dracula voice okay?)

In reality, they exist with us, walking around in the sun light and eating garlic. They do seek to drain your vitality but its not blood, its energy.

If we tap into science here, we understand that the human body has its own frequency.
If we add in the science knowledge of how mycelium works plus the quantum theories of everything being connected regardless of distance... then it's extremely plausible that the human body can and will exchange, absorb and even extract energy from another.

Like a sunflower exchanges energy with another when the sun is hidden by clouds.
When you follow and support specific creators but don't pay for their services all while engaging with them... you're paying in energy.

Not all creators are like this but it is a reality.
If you notice you started following a new creator and they have great content but your life isn't going as well as it was. It's highly possible your being syphoned off of.

This is why being aware of what you consume and whom you allow in your attention is key importance. 🔑

11/06/2025

Manifestation, astrology style.

"Where is Neptune in your chart?"

First, let's play the game of "Where's Waldo?"

Neptune rules the subconscious, the hidden, the intuition so where this sits in your chart can bring a LOT to the surface about how you can manifest through your higher chakras i.e. the crown and the star/soul chakra (8th chakra)

Use the guide below created by astroxrion.

Now, identifying where Neptune is in your chart is the easy part. (The 13th photo is Neptunes symbol) Understanding what house it sits in, also simple, look below..
Now, here's the fun part that I wanted to include here.

What rules that house? (My group has detailed guides for each house, planet and zodiac sign for free)

Natural ruler of the 1st house: Aries ♈️ (Your ascendant/rising sign determines your first house ruler, for additional information)

Natural ruler of the 2nd house: Ta**us ♉️

Natural ruler of the 3rd house: Gemini ♊️

Natural ruler of the 4th house: Cancer ♋️

Natural ruler of the 5th house: Leo ♌️

Natural ruler of the 6th house: Virgo ♍️

Natural ruler of the 7th house: Libra ♎️

Natural ruler of the 8th house: Scorpio ♏️

Natural ruler of the 9th house: Sagittarius ♐️

Natural ruler of the 10th house: Capricorn ♑️

Natural ruler of the 11th house: Aquarius ♒️

Natural ruler of the 12th house: Pisces ♓️

Check out the group guides for the degree rulers if you want to take it even further.
Astrology is the map and the more time you take to learn it, the easier it is to maneuver through life with ease.