Spirits Life Journey

01/14/2026

Dreamt of befriending a crow last night. Wasn't exactly sure what all that was about per the symbolism behind them..
Today, someone I was once close with passed away.
I think she was coming to tell me goodbye.
May her soul find healing on the other side, reunited with her son.

01/13/2026

01/13/2026

Dreamt I befriended a crow last night.
Such vivid dreams too..

01/13/2026

I think my ancestors are speaking to me. Suddenly, I have heavy culture pride in my reels (I am so not complaining but its doing some things to my emotions!)

Ranging from Native American to African and everything in between.
Pride in who and what you are, before the mix of industrialization and the other C word..
We have forgotten who we are but we are remembering. We are RE-membering who we are and we are standing in that pride.

As I have taken time for myself to integrate my heritage, I've done research into the history of my people..

Its ingrained in me, the ways, the practices, the teachings.. its natural, its me without my own awareness of it. The understanding has brought me awareness of so many things I do and wonder why others don't..
Took time to study into the pantheon of my culture and felt more at home than I have for a very long time. Egyptian always fit well but not just right, where as my culture was like a glove tailored for me..
The realization sank in that I actually picked one of the main gods to work with when I first started this path. I felt called to him and worked with him for a long while before moving on to learn/work with others. The path of finding my way and my self along the journey..
Here I am, coming full circle in such a deep movement, I am almost breathless.

01/12/2026

Okay collective friends, followers and observers.
I need advise...I am at a serious cross roads where I've been numerous times before but this time, it's either this or that, without much in-between.

I have a cleaning business to which, I already am irritated with the drive but, I make it work for me.
I have a toddler that has reached an age to where it's more of a task to take her with me so, I got.a sitter.
Now, understandably, that sitter has her own bills and such to pay so now, in order to hold my daughters spot, I have to pay even when she isn't there.
I fully understand that, but if I pay, I may as well just stay home after gas, supplies and sitter, I'm spending more money than its worth for my time/energy.
There lies the other aspect. My newborn (2 month old baby) will need a sitter after a while so either, I pay for both of them in the near future so I can increase my revenue or I just opt out of the sitter completely by staying home.

If I stay home, I'm losing my income which, is a hard thing for me to grasp.
I wouldn't be able to dedicate to one on one time with clients unless my husband is home which takes time away from us.
So I'd have to do remote work, which is not hard to do, just tedious..

That leaves the question of... if I choose to step away from cleaning, who will handle my clients?
I've built a business here, and it stopped growing because I'm focused on my babies..
Last person I hired was more of a problem than resourceful.
I have the ability to grow my client base if I had a reliable person to do it with..

So, inevitably I'm at a literal cross roads with four options here.
Pay the sitter more and deal with my infant as time comes..
Find a new sitter who just needs extra cash.
Stay at home and drop my entire cleaning business or try to hire someone, again, to grow it with..
My nerves are wrecked, again..
I was sick yesterday and today, faced with a new challenge...
Thank you, Capricorn season for this mental dilemma.

01/12/2026

Hope ya'll can appreciate the science experiment I have going on here.
The biggest one was first, the second right after and the other two almost a week or so after the first two.

Yes, I will be potting them in soil but first, I must calculate the correct soil blend (like another plant in water). They're supposedly extremely difficult to grow so, we'll see how this goes.

01/10/2026

Watching my kids play roblox (because i monitor what they're doing) and i had a dream recall.. well, more like a, hey, you forgot about this in the turmoil of the morning..

I dreamt of the most beautiful kitchen.. in this house i have been literally begging to explore fully.. and this was the last part..
The ktichen, the bathroom, the master bedroom, ahhhhh... the gorgeous cannot even be explained. It is EVERYTHING I could want in a home and more.. finally, last night, I was able to access it and make it mine..
There was one part where there was a water tank. Large enough that it was chest high for me, think fish tank at the aquarium okay?

Suddenly.. water flooded everything but I didn't even know it...because I was breathing under water...
It wasn't until I saw a towel swimming around, that revealed itself to be a baby shark..
Swam right past me, did I realize, "I'm breathing under water!"
I flipped a switch and the water went back to its normal level..but the others in the dream asked me, how I was breathing just fine..

I surprised myself.. truly..
I was woken up by my son but, what a dream.. I feel so accomplished.

01/10/2026

I feel like i have achieved a level of success in never expected in my life.

My orchid is about to bloom....and I kept it alive this entire time not just to survive but to thrive.
I did that.

01/10/2026

👏👏👌🫠🪶🌻☀️🦚🔥✨️

01/09/2026

I apparently opened my Facebook at the wrong time because...no... I don't even want to post the screenshot because I don't want to spread this awful information...but its a reality we live in..
Cc.