09/27/2025
From Things that make you think.
I’m seventy-two. My name’s Harris. I used to be a high school history teacher in Ohio.
Now I hide backpacks.
Not in schools. Not in libraries. Not in food banks with lines around the block.
I leave them where kids disappear.
Behind the bleachers at the football field no one uses anymore.
Beside the boarded-up convenience store that still smells like spilled beer.
Under the bridge where spray-paint tags scream louder than adults ever do.
People ask why.
Because that’s where I used to find my students.
When my wife died, the classroom was the only place that kept me standing. Then the district closed my school. Budget cuts, they said. Fewer kids “worth saving.”
I drove around those first months like a ghost, parking in old lots, remembering faces. The boy who used to doodle in the margins. The girl who never took her hood off. The one kid who sat through three funerals in a semester and still turned in his essays.
I started noticing where kids hid when they had nowhere else to go.
And one night, I remembered something: the way my students’ backpacks told the whole story.
Worn zippers, missing straps, heavy with secrets no curriculum could carry.
So I bought a few used packs from Goodwill. Filled them with small, stubborn things.
A peanut butter sandwich wrapped tight.
A notebook and a Sharpie, with my scrawl inside: “Write it down. It matters.”
A pair of headphones and an old MP3 player loaded with free audiobooks and a playlist I called “Stay.”
A bag of trail mix. A bottle of water. A cheap phone card.
I didn’t put in Bibles or pamphlets. Didn’t tape motivational quotes to the straps.
Just pieces of normal life. Things that say: you still belong in this world.
The first time I left one, under the bleachers, my hands shook like I was committing a crime.
Next week, it was gone.
In its place? A folded piece of paper: “Thanks. I ate the sandwich. I’m still here.”
That was enough.
Week by week, I left more. And the backpacks started talking back.
A hair tie, left for the “next girl who forgets hers.”
A library card, taped to a thank-you note: “They reopened. Go check it out.”
A Polaroid of a dog with “He’s waiting at home. So am I.”
Last winter, a backpack showed up on my porch.
Inside: a sandwich. A notebook. A pair of socks.
And a letter.
It was from a boy who used to linger behind the gas station. He’d planned to join a gang that night. Said the backpack stopped him. Not because of the food, but because of one scribble in the notebook:
“You deserve to see another season.”
He wrote, “I chose life. I got a dishwashing job. Now I’m leaving backpacks too. With your list.”
I sat on the porch until my coffee went cold, holding that letter like it was oxygen.
Now my neighbors help. A retired nurse slips in first-aid kits. A baker leaves muffins with a note: “Still good. Still loved.” Kids from the neighborhood ride their bikes over and toss packs into the trunk of my car. Nobody signs their names. Nobody takes credit.
It isn’t politics. It isn’t charity drives or photo ops. It’s just one quiet thing in a loud, divided country.
The world talks about walls, borders, crime rates, and statistics.
But when you stand under a bridge at dusk, you don’t see numbers.
You see a kid trying not to cry where nobody’s watching.
That’s who the backpacks are for.
My grandson asked me once, “Grandpa, why don’t you just hand them out?”
I told him, “Because shame is loud. Kindness has to whisper. Sometimes people can only pick up help when no one’s looking.”
I don’t know how many backpacks I’ve left. I don’t keep count.
But I know this: in a world that makes so many feel disposable, something as small as trail mix and a Sharpie can turn a night around.
You don’t have to save the country.
You don’t have to fix politics.
You don’t even have to change a life.
Just leave something soft where a broken soul might land.
Sometimes all it takes is a backpack—forgotten by the world, but found by the one person who needed it most.
And that, I’ve learned, is still teaching.
