09/06/2024
There are so many nights that keep me awake, my mind running over everything we've been through since the moment you were conceived. I often find myself caught in a whirlwind of doubt, wondering if I have "messed you up" or if I've "messed up our lives" in ways that can't be undone. The weight of the past feels heavy, knowing that some things can't be reversed, and that perhaps I could have done things differently.
But then, there are those moments that melt all the worry away—the ones where you look up at me with your big, bright eyes and say, "You're the best Mommy ever," or when you grab onto me tightly and whisper, "Awww Mommy, but I don't want to be without you for a few days!" or when you randomly burst out with "I love you so much, Mommy."
These moments, those words—they are endless. Each one is a reminder that no matter how much I second-guess myself, you see me as enough. You see me as love, comfort, and safety. You are so resilient, so forgiving, and you fill my heart in ways I never imagined possible.
I realize that we are growing together, learning, stumbling, and getting back up, hand in hand. And every time I feel like I’ve failed you, you show me the purity of your heart, and I am reminded just how lucky I am. I am beyond grateful that you are mine. Your love is a constant reminder that, despite the mistakes and imperfections, there's a strength in our bond that no amount of self-doubt can break.
Thank you for being my little light, my constant reminder that love, in its purest form, is forgiving, resilient, and so beautifully simple. I promise to keep showing up for you, just as you show up for me. 💕