
05/12/2023
Hi 👋🏼
Now that we are almost halfway through the year (HOW!!) I finally feel ready to post something for the first time in 2023.
Outside of a few IG stories I’ve been away from engaging in social media for almost 6 months. In January I felt this incredible urge to NOT be seen. I disabled my account for a few months. I withdrew from friends and family. My sole focus was and has been my jobs, making money and healing.
I know a lot of you have been wondering what has been going on. (I know this because of the messages I’ve been getting). There have been a few times I thought I felt ready to talk about everything but whenever I tried, it all felt too overwhelming so I stopped. I have felt like I needed to reach some kind of “resolution” in my life so I can say “hey this is where I was at but now I’m through it and everything is great!” But truthfully that hasn’t happened yet.
These past 6 months I have dove deep into:
•nervous system regulation and healing my own nervous system
•Microdosing 🍄💊
•coffee enemas and parasite cleansing
•working through the return of an eating disorder
•multiple kambo ceremonies 🐸
•paying off thousands of $$ in debt
•helping my son with his own health journey
•navigating my own health journey
All while working 6-7 days per week as a single mom.
Social media just hasn’t felt worth it. I had to eliminate any non-essentials from my life. I felt unworthy of this community I built. I felt like a failure in so many ways. So I have stayed hidden, again, not wanting to be seen.
But there have still been little whispers from the universe that my work in this space isn’t done. That I still have so much I can do and so much to offer. That I am worthy of showing up here and speaking even if I don’t feel “healed” and even if I have tons of my own flaws I’m working through.
I have so much more to say and not enough space to say it. How the rest unfolds is TBD. But I want to thank those of you who have stuck around, sent me messages, told me you missed me and sent your love to me. You’re the reason I haven’t completely given up on being in this space.
More to come. 🫶🏼
And P.S in case you were wondering yes I’m still sober.