04/21/2025
I asked, and he arrived.
In all his majesty.
During a simple but potent ritual in the Anza-Borrego desert, I called on the healed ancestors of this land.
I asked their permission, their guidance- they know what it is to be robbed of dignity and desecrated.
I connected with the healed ancestors of my first abuser. The one who crossed the line before I even knew what a line was. The one who set the tone.
It was my initiation into knowing evil.
Since he was of Native descent—Ojibway—I asked the ancestors of this land, and his, to assist to bring right relationship, restorative justice.
I revoked any soul contracts. I returned to him what is his. I reclaimed what is mine:
My body. My freedom. My boundaries. My sovereignty.
Not just from him—but from anyone, or any system, religion, business, or government that seeks to dominate, control, coerce, extract, desecrate, discard, or manipulate.
I intend this not just for me—but for his ancestors, for this land, and for all people. For you.
I revoked participation in any and all contracts of abuse of power through space and time.
I asked for a sign. For a spirit animal to speak.
Within a minute… a massive bighorn sheep appeared, galloping across the rock, regal and wild. He turned to look at me—and stood there. Watching. Witnessing.
My children and I stared in awe, struck by the moment.
A Ram. On Easter Sunday. The end of Aries season.
The sign of my grandmother, my protector and nurturer, now my spirit guide. Also my father, my grandfather, and my soul brother who was a corrective experience.
Even writing this now, I’m filled with a sense of… magic.
My whole body is tingling and I’m crying tears of gratitude.
If you’re seeing this message today—look up the meaning of Ram. Desert bighorn sheep.
You might find exactly what you didn’t know you needed.
I asked, as I do every trip, to be surprised and delighted.
And I was.
My children are free because I’m doing the work- I’m breaking the cycle of abuse and rebalancing power on the planet.