02/26/2026
Five years ago, Benjamin Leopold was curled on his apartment floor with a bottle of scotch. Today he runs marathons, writes horror novels, and surfs whenever he can get to the coast.
He cycled through 10 antidepressants in 18 months. The side effects were brutal. Emotional blunting erased his personality and got mistaken for progress.
It wasn't until a psychiatrist stopped prescribing and started asking what was underneath the depression that things changed. SPRAVATO® (esketamine) gave a bird’s eye view to years of trauma.
During dissociation, Ben could finally step outside his anxiety and see himself clearly for the first time:
"That's who Ben is? Dude, you're okay, man. Look at all the stuff you've done and all the things you've been through and all the amazing people in your life."
In this episode of Psychiatry Tomorrow, Ben sits down with and to walk through the full journey—from childhood trauma, to the antidepressant carousel, to the moment he finally saw what everyone around him had seen all along.
Worth a listen/read if you've ever wondered what treatment-resistant depression actually looks like from the patient's seat.
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Hear how one Spravato patient went from cycling through 10 antidepressants to building a life he loves — running marathons, writing novels, and surfing. Ben Leopold shares how the combination of deep therapeutic work and Spravato treatment finally broke through his treatment-resistant depression.