02/06/2019
The world of CHD is a journey no one wants to travel. It's ugly, it's unfair, it's raw, it's painful, it's unpredictable to say the least. When your baby is diagnosed, you're angry, you're hopeful, you're sad and then you gather every ounce of your strength and you fight. You fight like your baby's life depends on it . Because it does. Sometimes it means going against what's recommended. For some it means packing up your baby and heading for a place willing to save your baby's life. When your baby is doing well, you think of what could be right around the corner and what is also far ahead. You don't think ahead to weddings and college, you just put your whole heart into getting ready for the next battle. You pray and cry for and with other heart mommies burying their baby. You think to yourself how unimaginable that pain must be but then you remember that was almost you and could've easily been you. You want to forget that she's been through anything, you want to let her run and play and be normal. But in public, under that shirt, there's a battle scar that no one knows about. Unless you tell them. And you are torn between wanting to feel normal and wanting to spread CHD awareness.
You train your thoughts to not go to the what ifs. You are dependent on echos, heart caths, x rays, blood tests and cardiologists to tell you what you can not see. But ultimately your heart seizes at the thought of not knowing God's plan for your sweet baby...not knowing her purpose or how long it's for. But then...you open your eyes to the miracles you get to witness along this journey. You literally feel your heart swell and break at the same time. You see the hospital neighbor who wasn't supposed to make it through the night, suddenly off oxygen. You see your sweet baby endure things no one should have to, and they're still fighting. They're learning and talking and walking and are the bravest thing you've ever seen.
If you pay attention closely, through all the heartache and tears, you'll see the most amazing part about this...you'll see God's love everywhere. You'll see it in the support and love between strangers and heart families.
❤You'll see love wins. Love always wins❤
You'll see that Kindness. is. Contagious.
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