04/13/2026
Last update on this because I canāt anymore wins.
I am exhausted
thank you for everybody whoās reached out to me -you have no idea how much I needed that thank you
I donāt wanna talk anymore, talk about it or this on socials,
I hate being around me right now.
I donāt look the way I used to.
Iām not taking care of myself.
iām not running. Iām not smiling. Iām not sleeping. Not eating healthy. Not living.
I literally donāt know who I am anymore.
Iāve left LA before- but for adventures- youāve been my home- base. One of the loves of my life.
I didnāt leave you for an adventure. I left you because of a tragedy
The squatter has destroyed me.
I thought I was stronger than this -but what do we know of strength until defeat?
LA- itās woven into my dna.
My squatter knew I left because it was an emergency. She took my vulnerability and used it to support her lifestyle of squatting as her job. Itās her livelihood.
Flash Shelton
This is the biggest mistake and only regret of my life -
renting out a place after the fires so that I could survive.
Iām sorry the fires happen.
Iām sorry I feared losing my job.
Iām sorry I trusted.
Iām sorry to find someone to cover my rent while I was just trying to live.
Iām sorry for my friends for listening to this too freeking long.
Iām sorry Iām sorry Iām sorry.
I have all the fight, but no more money.
Itās all gone, but just like the car accident 8/23-I almost died. Shorty was paralyzed
He did not have insurance- illegal in LA but no one cares- no ticket or detention- he went home and had dinner with his family and never paid a dime -I had 26k of debt from medical, car, loss of income-
he made me destitute and got off- 8 witnesses- 2 other cars damaged- no license revoked. Nothing. We paid.
At least I had help from a gofundme Reanna Leigh Livingston
people love to take and will keep on takingā¦
I teach this in Yoga -non attachment, but itās really hard when itās stolen from you.
my mom likes to say no good deedā¦. You know the rest
My mom is always right. Mary Coughlin Searle always rightļæ½