10/24/2019
Hi, friends.
I want to talk about a couple of things this morning. Firstly, I want to talk about how nobody in Sonoma County is okay today, and secondly, I want to talk about how lucky I am to work where I work.
This morning, like everyone else here, I woke up to alerts on my phone about fire and evacuation. It's pretty far from our house, and I'm thankful for that, but of course I am concerned about everyone who is impacted. And of course I know we all remember how quickly fire spreads; there's no way to walk through an October day without smoke hypervigilance, no way to sleep soundly through the night when dry winds are blowing anymore.
And yesterday we found ourselves preparing for power outages again. And Monday, oh God, on Monday multiple schools here in Santa Rosa were on lockdown when a young person shot another young person and then ran away. Kamal's school was one of them, and while I knew intellectually he was safe and that his school's lockdown was just everyone being extra-cautious, I hope I never ever again experience the feeling I felt when I saw the word "lockdown" next to my child's school name.
My point is: we are frayed, here. We are kind of a pile of nerves, all of us. Some of us are really good at articulating it. Some of us aren't. We have to all reach deep and find patience for each other, the talkers and the not-talkers, the ones who curl up and hide and the ones who run out and act, the ones who respond with rage and the ones who respond with tears, the ones who don't know why they're acting out and the ones who know all about it. We have to remember to keep alerting those of us that don't look at social media and we have to be okay with seeing repetitive alerts. We have to be gentle with everyone, especially ourselves.
And that brings me to why I'm so glad to be a part of Well Sonoma. Because when we came together to build this collective, we saw ourselves as a resource for our community and champions of whole-life, patient-centric healthcare. What we didn't realize until we'd been working together for a few months is how well we all treat anxiety and trauma and how effectively we help our patients and clients find calm. All of us are trauma-informed--every provider, every yoga teacher, every staff member. Everyone works together to make sure that anyone leaving this space leaves calm, no matter how they came in.
I woke up filled with anxiety--all the usual anxieties of parenting and running a business and living in a world filled with injustice and holding space for the troubles of everyone I love, plus fire. So much anxiety. And I came here to work, and I took a yoga class from the wonderful Nina, and--well--I'm still anxious. But the difference between the anxiety I feel today and the anxiety that plagued me for my entire life is that now I have tools to cope with it. I'm still anxious after my yoga class, my balanced breakfast, my communicating with friends--but I can manage it. And I'm in it with my whole community. And it's not going to flatten me.
This is what I want to remind you about anxiety: We're all going to have it sometimes--if I didn't feel anxious about active fires two years after the enormous fires that swept through my hometown and took with them loved people and a huge percentage of our already-limited housing, that would be weird. If I didn't worry sometimes about my business overhead or whether I'm parenting well, that would be weird. But there exist exercise, meditation, medication, community, hands in garden dirt, long dusty hikes and long awkward hugs; there is TRE and craniosacral therapy and gentle facials and massage and talking through the hard things--all of those things, and more, are available to me and to you to help us keep moving forward when anxiety feels like it will cripple us.
I want to remind all of us that you can come and sit with us at Well if you're feeling overwhelmed. Come talk to our providers about the work we do with the nervous system. Learn about how we practice yoga for mental health first and see the physical fitness it brings as a happy side effect. We are here to hold space for you, to be human with you, and to leverage our tools to help our community move forward with strength, cohesion and calm.