10/13/2025
I’m not sure I have the space to hold it all. This life I mean. At least not until I let go of what all I have been carrying. And I’ve been carrying loads of fear and pain! Inherited of course from the world. Not knowing I had the strength or capacity to feel it, I hid it underneath. Under my persona, degrees, my career, my physique, my relationships. And now it’s all exploded in my face! The valve has broken and life has asked me to make room for more joy! But not until I let go. F**k! It’s all elusive. Seemingly simple but it’s all masquerading as false constructs. All the while, grasping onto safety in the form of love or love in the form of fear Or fear in the form of truth Or truth in the form of god. All the forms however cannot be intellectualized, they can only be felt and I felt it today though. On top do the mountain. A moment of clarity. A whisper of peace in the chaos of mind and form. Cleverly it overtakes the perspective. As soon as the guard is down, clarity erodes and fear trickles in. Convincing you that you are not IT! But I felt it today! The memory of who I am. On top of the mountain. An ounce of clarity to help me find my way home. And that is the purpose of life! To remember that fear does not rule reality. It is a sly companion, devilishly using our weaknesses to have us forget our purpose or our joy! Ah, what a clever game this life is! At our heels, constantly checking in to see how well we remember our dreams and beckoning us to let go of the illusions keeping us from our greatest potentials.