09/09/2025
In a recent activity for self-exploration, I realized that I was being seen.
Both by my own awareness, but by that of someone else.
It would have been appropriate to “perform” in that moment, but instead I chose to embrace the oddness that settled into my skin from being perceived.
And then, yet again, I got curious.
I wonder why I’m open to being seen when it’s a “seen” I deem approved.
I wonder why I feel so strongly when I can hear myself singing (because singing was part of the exploration).
I’m not a great singer, but I also was invited to make sounds that weren’t supported by the societal “good” we tend to respond to.
Singing poorly was part of the goal.
Yet, still I felt the squidge.
So I’ll continue to explore this and see where I land.
Because I want to live in my body comfortably, even when things aren’t in alignment with the societal “good” of things.
Duality within is essential.
And discomfort comes when growth is on the horizon.
So here we go! Singing through the squidge, and embracing the growth that comes with it.
