03/29/2026
I love that the flames always tell a story.. let me tell you ours. 🔥 This one surprised us by going off balance immediately 🫣
We dressed our salt altar with flowers & oils.. & lit both of these candles simultaneously 🕯️
The energy of the Past self began to burn much more quickly, “bleeding” a mess of wax all over ..until it traveled over to touch the black tourmaline — a talisman I placed there for protection & to dispelling/absorb negative energies or destructive forces.
Only AFTER the Past did so, the energy of our Now self dripped down to meet it. An integration of the wisdom of our journey, with a new sense of confidence.
The energy of the Now self stood strong & tall, as the Past continued to release it’s grip on the body.. reaching out for forgiveness, the Past versions of ourselves that we once held with such distain.. but she didn’t know.
Forgive her.
Let her create space, let her lessons be the smolder that can’t be snuffed out. She’s fortified the foundation in ways you couldn’t even conceive back then.
Let the Past rest — you have your whole life ahead of you.. to be whatever you choose.
To be true to yourself. ☯️
Only as the Past self had completely accepted her lessons — disappointment, guilt, shame, limitations, perfectionism — did the Now self ignite & begin to show what she can really do.
She danced & played, showing us that life isn’t meant to be heavy all the time — we have to remind ourselves of the glimmers that show up in between. ✨ They’re worth looking for.
Now self reached over to the pyrite — which I had placed there as a talisman to resonate with our fire energy, symbolizing the warmth & lasting presence of the sun — as well as the ability to generate wealth by one’s own power.
.& finally the Now reached across the salt to join with the Past in a resolution of self forgiveness for all those reactive choices we made before we had the awareness to take radical responsibility for our story.
She said “thank you for protecting me, but now I can protect myself — you are free to go.”
The best surprise is what we found in the aftermath — a yin yang in the ashes, a perfect balance, that we didn’t have to try so hard to achieve. It was just something that happened when we decided to choose ourselves again.
It reminds us that we are not in control of anything outside of ourselves.
Just our choices.
We can take the first steps, but there’s never a promise of where we’ll end up & no destination to rush off to.. 🗺️
At the end of this road, when no one is looking, it’s likely, we’ll look back & ponder.. did I enjoy my journey? ☀️
That’s when we realize, we didn’t have to wait our whole lives, just to see, did we?
Our choices are everything. We can forge a path to inner harmony, anytime we want. But it’s not gonna be quick. It’s not gonna be easy.
Anything worth having will cost some comfort.. so give your Now self the room to choose courageously. Just to see.
Til next month 🎇
