07/15/2025
morning coffee ☕️✨
I’ve been in some acute emotional pain lately.
About a month ago the opportunity arose for me to finally feel the full depth of grief from a sudden ending that happened in my world 18 years ago. And when that grief rose to the surface, instead of numbing her or stuffing her back down, I said, “Hello Grief, I see you, I feel you. I think I’m ready for you. What do you want me to know?”
This sudden and heartbreaking ending that I’m now processing, also coincided with an exciting new beginning. And so at the time, my brain and body chose to focus on that. Because I was not in a stable place to process the ending that was also occurring.
I’m grateful for my brain and body’s wisdom at that time. I wasn’t ready. I barely feel ready now.
But today, I am stable. I have all of the tools and so much support. I can sit with this deep pain. And I know I’m gonna be ok.
Life is hard and then it’s beautiful, over and over again. This is a hard moment. I don’t know how long it’s here to stay. But I do know, just like everything, it’s impermanent. This too shall pass.
I know that above all else, I came here to have the full human experience. Which means I came here to feel. Love. Loss. Heartbreak. Regret. Confusion. Joy. It’s all a part of the journey that my soul asked for.
There’s something to be gained from all of it. And my experience so far on this planet has taught that there is always something beautiful waiting for me on the other side of the pain.
The friends I have made through Mama Be Well are a testament to that. My spiritual practice was born out of pain and a need to heal. You likely found me because of some sort of pain or confusion you were in. Pain is a powerful connection point. I’m glad it led me to you.
Sending peace & Reiki,
~Katie
