07/04/2025
🥺🕯️🕯️🕯️🤲🏼💐
I, the and currently only LMT of am feeling the discord in my self-absorbed rebuilding of life ~ it rubs against other parts of myself that are and over the state of this home of mine.
I do want CleZen folx to know, that I align with simpler and basic values and that I often wish I were more knowledgeable of the political landscape domestically and globally. What I know most, is that everything is NOT GREAT and not okay with me. I’m sorry I’m not more active or aware outside my small circle. If anyone wants to loop me in, I LOVE to and and have ~ Come at me anytime! 🤲🏼
As many of you know, my partner is sober for the longest he’s ever been in 30 years. It will be 10 months for him, tomorrow. As we’ve lived together since my divorce, when his use became apparent with a full bore wild and dangerous relapse in roughly December of 2022 and lasted about 2 years, the life I’d been rebuilding was deeply damaged; having lived with c-ptsd for fifteen years ish, and in simply being a human & a Mom in a relationship, this time period was beyond triggering. I’ve really had to close up so so much and focus on survival and my son & my business as it quickly became the sole income. I am tearing up 🥺 as I type this out. I want to not just survive, but to live out loud with less fear and more courage. With more actionable advocacy for the world. I believe though, it’ll be some time more that my focus is more immediate. Like, on myself. And the which is two-fold ~ my son, and YOU!
For what it’s worth, I’m sorry. To my clients, neighbors, community and the world.
The only rule my son has in this home, is Kindness. I’m hoping against hope that this is a worthy and encompassing way to move forward. I’d like everyone to adopt this rule, eh? ❤️