10/10/2025
**TW** Miscarriage**
Every Friday in October, we will be sharing a story that has helped shape Hello Baby—stories of strength, love, and the babies who are no longer with us but continue to leave a lasting mark on our hearts. These journeys are not easy to hear, but they are deeply important.
Meet Nicole, one of our sonographers at Hello Baby.
My first baby would be 13 years old this year. 💔
In 2011, I had complications that no doctor could explain. I remember watching him on the ultrasound — wiggling, waving, and full of life. Then one day, I unexpectedly delivered him at home at just 16 weeks. He was so small, but he looked just like a baby. He had all his tiny features — a little button nose, soft lips, perfect fingers and toes. He was absolutely perfect in every way.
Nothing prepares you for this kind of pain. Even if I had been “prepared,” I don’t think it would have made it any easier. I felt like I had fallen into a deep hole filled with grief, anger, and disbelief. The world kept moving, but mine had stopped. I remember holding him and wondering how something so perfect could be gone so soon.
I tortured myself by going over every detail — every meal, every movement, every decision — asking myself what I did wrong or what I could have done differently. I blamed myself for everything. I think what made it even harder was the not knowing — no clear reason, no explanation. Just silence where answers should have been. Over time, I learned to accept that it wasn’t anything I did or didn’t do, but that acceptance didn’t come quickly. It took time, faith, and a lot of healing.
When I became pregnant again with my now 12-year-old son 💙, fear became my constant companion. I wanted to be excited, but I was terrified of reliving that pain. I struggled to bond at first, afraid to love too deeply in case my heart broke again. But when he was born healthy and strong, I began to breathe again — and slowly, piece by piece, I started to heal.
That experience forever changed me. It taught me the value of every tiny heartbeat and every single moment parents get to see their baby growing. It’s what led me to become a sonographer. Every time I hold the probe and see a little one on the screen, I’m reminded of how powerful these moments are. My passion comes from that pain, and it drives me to give every mom the best quality pictures I can get because it maybe the only things they have left to hold on to, like me.
For my sweet angel baby Zeke, you’ll always be a part of why I do what I do. 🤍
We hear stories like Nicole’s every day, and it’s a big reason why we do things differently here. Every family deserves care, compassion, and a space where every little heartbeat, every tiny movement, and every precious moment is treated with the love and respect it deserves. That’s what guides us in everything we do. 🌼
