02/12/2024
Itās that time of year again where grief shows up on my door, sometimes loudly, but sometimes sneakily. This time it felt like blah, not in a way where I am not allowing myself to feel.. but more like i know itās there and thereās nothing I can do about it. So Iām gonna sit with it, feel it and tango through it.
Three years feels like forever without you Mom. I wish you got to physically witness my accomplishments. You would be so proud. I knew how excited you were to meet Iris, and it really has broken me to thousand of pieces knowing that you never got to meet her. Your passing 4 days after her birth was so difficult to navigate as a new mom. How I wish the circumstances were different, but losing you and birthing her was and always be my driving force. The antidote to destruction is creation and so I will continue to create in your honor Mom. Thanks for holding it up there for us. Having you as our angel and loving ancestor is a gift I am yet to unwrap and understand. As always, I am grateful for your unconditional love that ripples over. You were the coolest mom ever. I love you forever.