11/01/2025
Today my sweet, sweet home closed.
A decision that has not come easy
One I’ve spent months—honestly, a solid year—going back and forth on.
Trying to expand my capacity to hold it alll, while single parenting, being a boss babe, healing all the things…asking constantly, do I still want this? Why is this important? What is it about THIS house that feels different than the other 4 I’ve owned?
Even with a deep connection to my intuition, my knowing, to my ability to trust… big financial decisions push my edge.
It’s in those moments I find myself craving the steadiness of a partner—someone to fall into and hear, “I’ve got it. It’s going to be okay. This is the right move. Here’s what we are going to do next.”
There have been many nights curled up on my incredibly comfy white couch this month (the one I LOVED), tears streaming, whispering to myself:
It’s just a house Amyee
And yet… I realize that while that’s true, it’s what it means—what it signifies—and the perceived stability it gives
It’s the anchor and option to come back to Alaska-one that quite literally saved me when I became a single mother and needed a place to land.
It’s the sanctuary of love, intention, thoughtfully curated furniture and decor that helped reflect and energetically hold me.
It’s the stake in the ground of I did this one with my own money from my coaching business.
It’s the permission slip it gives to wanderlust the world, knowing that I had equity building and had checked the boxes that I was “supposed to do” elsewhere. Kind of the have the cake and eat it too situation ya know?
The “Yeah yeah yeah, I did the thing everyone thinks is the best thing, so now I can go do what ACTUALLY want to do”
Sound familiar?
Where else do we do we are supposed to, check the boxes, get the approval-before doing what we ACTUALLY want and listening to the quiet whisper within?
Letting go doesn’t always feel graceful and easy, but in it there is space
For the next version of home — within and around — to take shape. Not from shoulds or what looks good on the outside, but what aligns and feels right on the inside.
Maybe you needed that reminder today too.