20/11/2020
The struggle. It’s been so real for the last two weeks. A week ago I became sick with the cold/flu and to be honest it took me out. I was so ill I decided it was best not to go to the gym for obvious reasons.... I was so sick I just wanted to feel better so I ate things I don’t normally eat. I. Addition my fiancé who’s a firefighter was home for 4 days, which is the longest he has been home since fire season started. I fell into the I want to feel better. I want to feel comforted and even though I was miserable I was so happy because he was home.
I struggle with the feeling of “ normalcy” sometimes. Why can’t I be like others, who have healthy relationships with food and can eat what they want and not obsess over how many carbs were in it?
I struggle with self love, actually it’s deeper than that. I struggle to even like myself most days.
I struggle when I am not in a routine. Currently my gym had to move to outdoor work outs. I leave in the morning when it’s dark and I don’t get home until after dark. It’s just not realistic for me or for any gym in California located in the Sierra Neveads and luckily I have a gym that goes above and beyond with zoom workouts and meetings and coaching!
I struggle to find inspiration to keep going sometimes and this is the part of wellness and weight loss no one talks about. Why? Why do we not talk more openly about the struggle? I love nothing more than talking to someone and finding that they also struggle with the same demons I do. It makes me feel like I am not on this journey alone.
How do plan to tackle the struggle? Same way I always do. I make a plan. I remember the goals and I adapt to my situation. I also still need to learn to give myself grace. This year has had us all spinning and nothing is the same.... here’s to finishing the year strong 💪🏼
And to gracefully facing the struggle!